I am a psychiatrist who specializes in DD

Hello, my name is Doctor Jones, and I am a psychiatrist who specializes in the area of Delusional Disorder. You may not believe it, but I to suffered from Delusional Disorder at one point of my life. I will tell you about some of my delusions that I had at one point. At one point I thought that I was an alien called a Xenomorph who was trapped in a computer called Earth. The other Xenomorphs who lived on my home planet of Xeno programmed me into the computer as part of an experiment to see what would happen. They had implanted many different instruments in my body to track what was going on at the time on the face of earth as well as to better track the behavior of these humans. I then thought that the Xenos were trying to program me back out of the computer through a portal. I would walk around for miles some nights in search of these portals. I would try to decode messages from the weather because I believed that this was how the Xenos were trying to communicate with me. I thought that by successfuly decoding the weather patterns I could find my way to the portal and get home safely back to my family on my real planet. That was only one delusion. I also had some delusions of grandeur. I believed that my mind was the most intelligent mind in the history of the earth and that I could understand things that no one else could understand, so it was up to me to find Albert Einstein's work of the Theory of Everything and continue it on to unlock the equation of life, which could be used to alter anything in any way. Well now you know a little about my story and about how I got here so I implore you to ask me some questions about the disease and I think that I will be able to provide some informational answers about OUR disease. Very well I will write you back soon.

Sincerely Yours,
Doctor Jones

I believe you are deluded into thinking you are a Doctor - a shrink at that. You probably make a better sc-fi writer.

Please ignore this guests post, for what it looks like this person is just spamming the forum, if it continues this person will be banned.

Guest wrote:I believe you are deluded into thinking you are a Doctor - a shrink at that. You probably make a better sc-fi writer.

I replied to his first post in the schizophrenia forum by citing some scientific articles challenging his position and he straight away said I was suffering from delusions and that I needed medication. No lab test, no medical examination, no consultation. All it took was a few paragraphs on an Internet forum for him to make that diagnosis. He sounds like a professional psychiatrist to me.

sadgurl wrote:Please ignore this guests post, for what it looks like this person is just spamming the forum, if it continues this person will be banned.

Dear Sadgurl, clearly you cannot think that. I am a psychiatrist and I am here to help those of you who are in need. I already told you about some of my delusions, why dont you people post some of your past delusions.

Anonymous wrote:

Guest wrote:I believe you are deluded into thinking you are a Doctor - a shrink at that. You probably make a better sc-fi writer.

I replied to his first post in the schizophrenia forum by citing some scientific articles challenging his position and he straight away said I was suffering from delusions and that I needed medication. No lab test, no medical examination, no consultation. All it took was a few paragraphs on an Internet forum for him to make that diagnosis. He sounds like a professional psychiatrist to me.

Dear Anonymous you are absolutely correct. I am a clinical psychiatrist who works on an in-patient basis at Abbot Northwestern Hospital in Minneapolis.

Doctor,

I am not new to the internet or mental illness, but for this being my first time on this site I am very happy to have found your post.

I have had 2 prolonged delusions - very similar - one in 1999 and one in 2005 - each lasting about 6 months or so at their peak and tapering off until I "recovered" and "woke up" to a ruined life each time.

(My delusion, I must say, was full of coincidences which were factual and I submit that the factual coincidences strongly fueled my deluded outlook.)

Mine was similar to yours in the intelligence area - some days I thought I was the most intelligent, other days I thought I was god himself (fighting the devil - who in my mind was many different people, mostly family members from time to time.)
The factual coincidences which fueled this were that my birthday was on Easter 1999, it also was the day Einstein died and my fathers was the day hitler died - he was "the devil" most often.

Besides that, I grouped my friends and associates in categories of good and evil and there were 3 guys, along with myself which made up the "4 gods" as my delusion dictated.....the other 3 varied between the 99 and the 05 episode in 05 they changed at my will since I was the "master"

I had depressive problems growing up, moved around a lot, but never anything so psychotic. My delusions stirred in me some hostility I dont usually deal with. Accusing friends and family of hurting me (or others), yelling and screaming about completely fictitious situations (usually on the phone), refusing to speak to anyone unless I initiated the conversations....

It got to the point I was not only a god but (of course) a world leader......one day the president, another the king of england, and finally, saddam hussein...I called a few clients and even the white house to inform them I was immortal and any war efforts would be useless...The secret service probably realized I was psychotic but harmless as 20 minutes later I heard a knock at the door and a gun was pointed right at me........I told them I wasnt even a US citizen and they couldnt touch me, etc, etc and gave them a story (which I REALLY beleived to be true at the time) that I was an immigrant from Yugoslavia (reflecting back on the previous delusion as in the 99 delusion I was convinced my moms boyfriend was slobodan milosevic) etc..etc....

Well I seem to have gotten off on a few tangents of the story of my delusion. I tried to include most of the major points but I am sure only reliving it would ever be able to mentally unearth all of the fine points of who and what I thought was going on.... I must say it was quite a story and to live it twice with some details shifted and be "sane" here looking back just keeps me in awe of what the mind can truly do. Im on Rispredal now, but the first time I recovered naturally.....this time I hope the Risperdal can prevent another occurence....

I was semi functional both times, except for being able to hold a job. This last time I lost my business and home....at 27 its hard to be climbing to the top and come plummeting down due to something out of your control......

I read somewhere that delusional is the point past paranoid.....could marijuana have caused these episodes? I was a daily user leading up to both occurences.....daily for a short period of time - 6 months or less....maybe my brain cant handle it? Anyhow I dont use it anymore - it makes me paranoid with a single inhale....

I just wonder if I need Risperdal for the rest of my life or if simply abstaining from marijuana would prevend such concrete delusions....

I just wanted to add some of my symptoms...

I didnt sleep that much during those two periods, I ate only 1 meal a day and most importantly I "read in" to music and television, thinking that the entertainment industry was bent on telling the story of my "soul mate" , someone who was actually two people that coincidentally looked the same but were from two different parts of my life. The first was someone who moved away from me in 3rd grade, the second someone I met in high school and had limited contact with after that.....I was deluded into thinking we were already married, and was "the greatest love of all".....whitney houston was one of a hundred songwriters I thought was "in on it" ....so I guess there was a bit of erotomania attached.....I kinda harassed this person during both episodes, luckily the second was only via email and I recovered from the delusion hoping never to be found....ugh

Sheesh! I am remembering all these tidbits but one major point I left out is that I beleived I posessed the power of magic and that the other gods were masking the results of my magic so that I could feel normal because I was traumatized by being god...having "always been here"

I could add so much more and more detail and examples but we are talking about a year of delusions, collectively, and its late and Im hoping to get a reply as this thread has been inactive for a few months....

Well I was set on making that my last reply but I left out my diagnosis...

in 99 I never sought treatment - I beleived the delusion until it faded - in 05 I saw a psychiatrist (on the advice of my attorney who played into my delusion as my "long lost father" - as my real father at the time was my kidnapper.....) and was diagnosed as bipolar and prescribed Risperdal. I dont know that my diagnosis was so accurate as I wasnt forthcoming with most of the delusion and he was really only aware of my manic episodes ( i spent all my savings and was taking a bunch of mini vacations to the keys and vegas)
gotta sleep now...no worries - ive been stable for 5 months now and am just going back to work next week after 11 months of nothing....