I'm really worried about myself

Hi there,

Just a brief overview of the issue: I get a lot of anxiety and have some trauma from getting beaten a lot by my father as a child. I'm not on any medications.

Earlier this year in March I had an "episode". I got very upset and irritable for no reason. I was then utterly convinced there was a man coming looking for me to assassinate me. I locked all the doors of the house and my boyfriend could not reassure me or convince me otherwise. I believed the blinking blue light on my was a bug and I was being watched.

The next day I was completely lucid and felt fine.

Then last night I got upset and irritable for no reason again. I got scared of my mirrors because I thought people could see me through them. I spent the night sat up with my light on in case an intruder burst through my door.

And then I woke up this morning feeling fine again.

I've done some research on delusional disorders but I'm hesitant to get it addressed because I had such a large period of being lucid.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

B x

Hi, tenuousgrip! Even if you had that lucid period, you could still talk to a psych doctor to figure out what is going on. Maybe it's not as severe as you might think, maybe there is good treatment for it. But you do need to see a professional.
You could ask a close family member or friend for support and help. They could help you find someone, take you to their office and wait for you, you could talk to them when you're not feeling well too. You can also talk here. How are you?