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Postby Tara » Thu Jan 29, 2009 11:59 pm

Sunny,

that description (sudden thought followed by intense feeling and adrenaline rush) is familiar to me. I used to feel like this quite often while remembering traumatic or embarassing events. I also remember reading several accounts of people with PTSD who described similar feelings during their flashback episodes. I'll give you specific example - in my late teens I lived through political unrest in my country of origin and while I didn't personally witness anything extremely violent or traumatic, it was stressful time and on several occassions there was a possibility of an air assault. For at least five years afterwards I would have this violent reaction to the sound of an airplane, especially if it was unexpected. Then at one point I was on a business trip abroad and visited an office building near the airport. There was the sound of an airplane taking off and no reaction to it - I remember thinking something along the lines of "wow, it is gone...". I truly expected that I'll have to live with that reaction for the rest of my life.

I am now in my late thirties and frankly I don't remember the last time I reacted like that to anything. I still sometimes remember same things that used to trigger it but reaction is just not the same anymore - I think that in most cases brain rewires itself in time even if you don't explicitly try to achieve that in ways that peace2u and Kevin described.

As for the question you asked me earlier - the age difference between my children was nine years. Mind you, it is not that the trauma of my first birth kept me from having another child for so long, during that time there were other enormous changes to my life - immigrating to USA and realizing that my elder son is autistic, for instance. In some ways, the experience was useful since it made me work very hard on educating myself, taking charge and making sure that I do all I can to avoid repeating it for the second time.

Sunny, what I really want to say in all this rambling is this: at this stage, I think that most of your emotions and experiences are caused by you simply being human and not by your past illness. I can relate to many things you write and I am not nor have ever been psychotic. Go on with life, enjoy your daughter, your job, your marriage, your cooking (I can relate to that one, too :-) ). Dark thoughts will come and go but one way or the other you will find a way to deal with them.
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Postby peace2u » Sat Feb 28, 2009 2:04 pm

Hi Sunny
Good to hear that you remain well. Going through all the stress of a job loss is tough. I (and I'm sure others on the forum as well) am sending good thoughts your way.
Keep us posted.
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Postby qwerty » Mon Mar 02, 2009 12:21 pm

sorry about your husband's job loss. I hope he is able to find work again soon. If you haven't already, make sure your doc & therapist know about your financial situation. Some of them will work with you on this.

good luck!
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Postby Chucky » Wed May 27, 2009 2:53 pm

Sunnyg wrote:Some good news. My hubby is employed again and I made it through the worst of it without another psychotic break. Thank you all for your support.
Sunny

Hello my dear, I haven't spoken to you for a long time but I'm happy to hear that things are better for you now. You must always cling onto hope and brush setbacks aside like they mean nothing to you. You are a truly wonderful person, you know that?

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Postby Chucky » Thu May 28, 2009 8:40 pm

Thank you for your words, Sunnyg. You are one of the nicest people I have met in my time here. Regarding Hawai'i and Obama, I think that he did actually go there just after he was elected officially as president. Are you mixing that memory up?
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