Question about my history of delusions snd responsibility

by **Ore688** » Mon Sep 26, 2022 3:10 am

I used to have Fregoli related delusion, due to severe symptoms of Prosopagnosia I had throughout my childhood, but I still understood right from wrong at that time.

When I had a severe manic episode, I had a delusional belief that the currupted military police is going after me, I was 15 at that time. My paranoid delusional belief got much worse, and once became aggressive, in the delusional belief that I am defending myself.

At the age of 15, I didn't understand right from wrong.

But as an adult, I sometimes have homicidal delusional beliefs, as I sometimes have anger problems from being teased in the past for having Autism Spectrum Disorder, but I still know that there are negative consequences, if I acted apon homicidal delusions that I sometimes have.

Is it normal that as an adult, I still understand the legal consequences of my actions, even when I sometimes have delusions?

I feel like I learned a lot through the years

I hadn't read the whole thing, but I've come across the idea of the 'overvalued idea'. Which is like a delusion that's not a delusion, and seems to be triggered by things in one's past- which you mentioned you think your thoughts are due to having been teased.

https://www.cambridge.org/core/books/de ... B4A058A2FA

Something that seems, from the little reading I did, distinct from either a mania-induced psychosis, or a flat-out delusion. I don't know this really applies here, though, but I thought you might find it interesting. It seems people who have an 'overvalued idea' are quite coherent in most of the rest of their thinking they just have this one quasi-delusional belief they hang onto.

Now, just to be clear, you're speaking of thoughts that are not intrusive, yes? I mean I'm OCD and I have harm thoughts that used to give me trouble, but it didn't stem from obvious anger (subconscious might be another thing entirely however) and I consistently found the thoughts to kill to be distressing, which is entirely in line with obsesssive-compulsive disorder being that people with OCD get these ego-dystonic thoughts that cause them angst. And I can tell the difference- if I really want someone to drop dead of a heart attack, yeah I know I do. :twisted:

As opposed to an unreasonable notion I'm going to kill someone, a thought that causes me distress and fear.

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Question about my history of delusions snd responsibility

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