What if it's not all delusional

I feel like their's a plot thickening around me that I sometimes act on in a very vague manner that sort of eludes that's very vague and quite frankly creepy to those I'm eluding towards if not true that I'm involved in this sort of plot. I often feel watched and monitored that connects on a grander scale than it should which leads me to believe It's psychosis given a history of psychosis. I said some things in a group chat amongst friends which I believe to have been forwarded to others which is actually very plausible on at the very least a small scale when someone is mentally unwell. I referred to myself as a baby being put to sleep (not in a homicidal manner like actual sleep) to describe something when I was manic which I still am to a very small degree. I work in a busy outlet mall at a kiosk and I was busy with a line of customers and I guy walked by and said "hey baby" like mocking me. I just focused on work and didn't let it phase me because I can't afford to collapse but I could see it when he looked over he said it with that sort of purposeful intent. I've had a lot of anomalies happen a lot of suspicions. I looked up different techniques of investigating and stalking and a lot added up but I just tried to brush it aside and make sense of it by saying well I am in a battle with my insurance company over a major automobile accident. A lot of suspicious things, some supportive evidence that legitimizes my claims but everyone I talk to has said well maybe they weren't looking at you or I didn't see them and likewise. A lot of guys in veterans caps (one pictured looking directly at me with a grin with no child in a kid's Muesam in a very small town. A purposeful photo bomb while I took a picture of my wife. I'll go into a store and the same people will be there shopping with little or no items. Like picking up random toys and putting them back on the shelf at the dollar store while I'm with my wife and son. One guy also in a veterans cap looked suspicious in the motor oil aisle at Walmart so I went down the aisle and pretended to be looking for motor oil and then said "eh I don't want to get the wrong one" as if I were talking to myself out loud. Then I went and met my wife and child in the toy aisle where we were letting him pick out a toy and then he walks down there no item or cart in Walmart. I go to the grocery store and the manager is pretending to straighten up a bread display so I move over towards the bread and he moves to the other side where I was originally standing now he's pretending to do another task, this continues and so forth. My wife and I were hovered over by a very large thuggish looking man picking out grapes so I turn around and he shoulder bumps me then maintains a clear visual of us throughout our shopping with 0 items in hand. Manager races by frantically. (Should have called 911 and pulled up surveillance but I didn't) wife of course doesn't notice these anomalies. The other night I pull up to a convience store and and old black sedan with a completely black tint (illegal outside law enforcement) and a barcode on the window pulls up and parks Cady cornered at an odd angle. So before entering the store I pop out and pretend to check the air pressure in my tires while glancing intently in their direction I couldn't see in past the blacked out tint and then they took off like go, go! I don't know man a lot of anomalies but maybe I'm unwell.

Hi. I sent you a PM but noticed your post here. I had the same thoughts for a long time. I had trouble 'sorting out' what was real and what was not. That is part of the illness, your mind cannot tell the difference. Now I am ok, and I do not have these discrepancies anymore. I know what you mean by anomalies, strange coincidences that don't seem to be coincidences, they seem to be intentional placement of words, actions, e.t.c. I feel for you, I truly do. I have been through that for sure. Read my PM, maybe it will help shed some light on your situation. I'm here for you, even if I might not check up that often. Delusional thinking is serious and if left unchecked, extremely detrimental to ones' life and perhaps those close to them as well. We need to band together and help each other out.

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