Is this normal?

NOTE: i'm not looking for any sort of diagnosis. i'm just wondering if these things are normal or not. if i find out they're not, i'm gonna talk to my therapist about it. it's just, i've been to embarrassed to talk about these things so im not sure if this is normal or not.

so basically i always have this feeling theres a person around so i guess my mind equates it to someone's watching me. so, because of this, i oftentimes believe that someone who has emotionally impacted me (crushes, bullies, etc.) are watching me either from my eyes (and can hear the things i hear), or from some object (like a card from someone). This causes me to act different just so i don't seem weird or dumb to them, and i avoid doing things that might embarrass myself in front of them. This also causes me to talk to myself so much more when im alone, so they know what's going on and what i'm thinking.

i also have this belief that at times others can hear my thoughts. Sometimes, my thoughts will get too loud or strong that i'm suddenly like "oh wait, can they hear that?" just because someone's facial expression changed when i thought of something weird or a similar occasion. This causes me to have to force out thoughts because i don't want them to hear. I also fear that i'm accidentally saying my thoughts so if im actively thinking about things around people, i have to make sure my mouth is closed so I don't speak out my thoughts, even though i never have.

so yeah, these things have been happening for years. it started happening before i ever took any medications so i know it can't be from medications. so.... is this normal? because if it isn't i'm going to seek help from my therapist.

Normal is a funny word so I'm not going to use it.

Having these kinds of ideas and feelings are definitely something you should talk to your therapist about. I do these same things as well and also never wanted to tell anyone. I did tell my therapist recently. What she said, and what others here have said, is that we don't have to feel like this.