I need advice.

Hi, this is the first time I post anything or even talk about it to anyone.

Ever since I was younger, (a child) I could hear voices in my head. At first I thought it is normal since everyone always says the phrase 'you're crazy'. Anyhow, it is difficult for me to explain what it is that I hear since it is very muffled and starts off very softly, I can hear a genderless person speaking but I can not make out what they are saying, sometimes it is multiple voices with a weird sound in the background. The more I try to resist it or fight it off, the louder it gets. It is horrible. I try humming so that it can go away and that usually just causes it to get louder and louder. When it stops, it stops with a bang and everything is quiet. I also experience I think hallucinations, I'm not sure but I see things that aren't there, for instance I will look on my phone for something and see something else and when I look again there was nothing. I don't know if that is normal.

I also have OCD. I hear loud footsteps in my mind, I know for sure it is not real but it sounds like something or someone who is massive and then obviously takes very giant steps. I can't get that out of my mind. It creeps me out. I don't know why I experience these things. I've been sucking my thumb from birth until I was 19, only stopped with help from orthodontic treatment. I am 21 now.
I don't know who to talk to since I doubt if anyone will help me. Any advice?

Dear Milly091:

My advice is to see a competent professional, a psychiatrist or psychotherapist.

I am neither a professional nor have I heard voices but I "hear" my own thoughts and many of my thoughts are critical of me. I am thinking your voices are your thoughts plus a "special affect" added to them. And just like when I tried to reject my thoughts, they persisted. I have OCD since childhood.

Anything and everything you experience is part of the human experience, and so, it seems to me, we are all on that continuum. And so there is a way to heal. Therefore a competent, caring therapist can help a lot!

atina

Those voices could be real and intruders of your privacy, either from distance or closer than you think, or of course, part of your imagination.
if the orthodontist asks you to put on bands to place pain onto your jaw, i definitely recommend not doing so. your jaw alignment will return to its natural position over time, the bands should be avoided