Officially lost it.

Not sure where to really begin...This all started two years ago. I was normal up until 2 years ago. I had a neighbor who verbally abused and stalked me for a year. Had to get a restraining order. I went through a divorce. I have a 4 year old little boy who means the world to me.. I moved to a new apartment. I am not sure what really happened the last weekend of September 2 years ago but something did. My son was at his dad's for the weekend. I went to dinner with my girl friends. I came home...and it was like somebody had drugged me. There was a different smell. My best guy friend thinks that somebody gave me ketamine. I don't remember a lot about that weekend. What i do remember...was that somebody wanted me to stay away from this one guy that i had been on one date yet....I couldn't read the red words in the bible...and that people were like chameleons and blended in and also some people were crows..and that if said anything to anyone whoever it was would hurt my family... and I also remember someone telling me my tubes really hadn't been tied....On that Sunday I was supposed to join the church that I am member of now since I rededicated my life to Christ...but I didn't answer anybody's calls. On that Monday, I drove around where I live and somehow got lost and ended up at a mansion. The people that owned the house gave me some water and it tasted weird.... The police were called and I was taken to the hospital for observation. It was weird...or at least it seemed to me that the ambulance that took me to the hospital drove all over town. It was very weird. When I got to the hospital...it was strange....it was like some of the doctor's were actors. Anyway, so fast forward a little bit...I am having what I believe are sexual tactile hallucinations....that is the only logical reason I can come up with. They happen all the time. The only time I don't feel it is when I am asleep or taking a shower or doing housework. I have a full time job...I work from home and it is so very hard to concentrate with this going on all day. Now the other thing...is that I remember that weekend that I said that I look for numbers 74, 75, 92, 93, 40, 42. Also the other numbers that I see are 78 and 37. 78 and 37 are numbers that relate to the guy I went out with one time. these numbers seem to follow me.... I have tried to stop looking or noticing them. Numbers are everywhere...Numbers happen...it is not like they mean anything... I work with numbers everyday and these numbers keep popping up. At my old apartment there were noises...like somebody tapping on my walls. Now it is funny that since we moved again my 4 year old says there were monsters in the old house but we have none at the new house. Now in the new apartment which is brand new...just built...I do hear noises...but it is a new house so I try to write that off as a new apartment thing... Now...Things that I know are for real...at least I think they are....my iphone does some weird things like the icons move around by themselves, pictures on facebook flash, pinterest flashes pins at me....I do know my phone was hacked about 2 and half years ago and I thought I knew by whom but now I am not so sure. When I was at the old apartment...I had an kindle cord that stood straight up in the air....and a piece of art was moved to another location when I wasn't home. Every now and then when I try to dial someone I get a message saying an area code is needed...which I find weird....I am sure there is a logical explanation for everything. My computer has been hacked twice and fixed twice. Still think it is hacked. I am really getting tired of this happening on a daily basis. Part of me thinks that this crap is for real. And the other part of me thinks ...Yep you have flipping lost your damn mind. I pray everyday for this just to go away so I can have my life back. I just want my life back. I want a happy life with my little boy. I really don't understand how I have been fine until 2 years ago. I just don't get it. I keep trying to tell myself this is not real and it will get better. So far that hasn't worked. Anyone have any ideas?

Wow was it strange reading your post. I've had a similar experience in my life that started after a brief dating experience with the wrong person. The whole weird smell, being drugged, things happening in my apt, etc. But this went on for years. Horrible things. I moved far away. He followed me. I'm praying that he's gone now, that I only have delusions of his presence fueled by fear of the past. I had filed a restraining order, everything. The police were no help. Same thing with computer, iPhone, electronic stuff.

I ended up dissociating because of the trauma of this experience. It was truly an ongoing nightmare. Fortunately I have a great therapist who has experience with trauma and DID who is helping tremendously. I'm doing my best to heal and put it all behind me.

I hope your situation resolves much much quicker and easier than mine did. I will be sending you lots of positive energy.