Is there any possibility that...?

Spirits do communicate through the radio? It seems they would do this when you need comforting. But I have this too, and one time, someone I had a crush on would send me these songs just for me, from his higher self. Part of me doesnt belueve it, but part of me does, and when that part sees my crush, i feel that he knows that I know i heard the song. I was like this for years, am 36 now, and just st now realizing how messed up i might be. I feel like my dad except I am able to question my delusions now. And of course, never talk about them outloud. My dad never had ertomania, more grandiose type, like he has special connection to various popes. He used to call the White House all the time and believed he was very influential. Thing is, maybe he was! We grew up hearing stories about how importanthe was. Maybe he was! This is why I do not like talking with people. I feel like everyone is crazy, and us talking about their own delusions. But im starting to realize that not everyone is my father. He would lecture for hours when I was a child, on a weekly basis, about his greatness, ideas, and basiically his delusions, but i did not know they were delusions at the time, i was a child. He was intimidating, angry, unpredictable, scary, but also extremely funny, clever, and philosophical. I am a loner.

No.

Make the part of you who knows its not real, stronger than the other part.