by Scattered Ashes » Tue Oct 06, 2015 2:46 am
I won't diagnose, but I will provide my personal exprerience and how the two relate in myself.
Outside of psychosis, paranoia may still occur. For example you may ask yourself what if someone you know is persecuting you, or may have evidence that they are to some degree and then ask yourself what could they be doing that you don't know about? However, this will likely be somewhat in the background of your day to day living, just seen as a concern left off to the side that doesn't require immediate attention, but may require monitoring for signs that something is going to go down.
Psychosis is when the process becomes all consuming. It is sometimes possible to pinpoint to the second when psychosis has occured, because of a distinct feeling that "sh*t just got real!". Suddenly you are overtaken by a bizarre feeling, as if something of great significance were occuring, and your previous paranoid musings may well be central to the process. At this point, you can think and speak of little else but what is going on (in your mind). Whether or not the paranoid ideas are held onto with certainty or not, they are certainly seen as so important that they must be focused upon to the exclusion of all else, known as a "break from reality", or if you do manage to distract yourself from them, may instead turn to "if it is not [paranoid theory] going on, then what is?". The occurrence happening to you may be given spiritual significance, or seen in terms of the development of your entire timeline. While psychotic, your general behaviour may also be different from usual, and perhaps quite unstable. If you have a lot of insight, you will understand at the time that what is happening to you is not simply a reaction to an objective situation, but is a mostly internal process of psychological change, and it is this psychological phenomenon, not the paranoia itself, which is the essence of the psychosis.
So, if this feeling of paranoid anxiety seems to be more or less constant, and is occupying your thoughts so much that you appear to be treating it as real, and your behaviour is changing as a result, and even if you stop thinking about it, you still get a strong feeling of "something going on" that you will interpret via some other unconventional means... then I would say it could quite possibly be psychosis, however I cannot say for sure. I know when I personally am psychotic and when I am just paranoid, but it is hard to describe exactly what the difference is, as it is a very subjective change, so it is hard to know unless you already know, you know?