Does This Count?

Hi, i'm sorry if i don't know where to place this post, this is my first time on here. I have recently come to the realization that the majority of my experiences aren't ''''normal'''' or at least that others that i know haven't experienced them. Initially i thought they could be delusions, but i'm at least partially aware the entire time that they cannot be true? it's happened since i was a kid (i'm a teenager now) and i would be like totally convinced but like i recognized how illogical everything was??
for example i would freak out every night because i was CONVINCED there were giant spiders/roaches under the covers at the foot of my bed and i would pull back all the sheets and bring my mom in to do it too and there would be nothing?? but i would be so ######6 sure anyway even though i knew it wasn't true???
or like i would be sure i was being watched while doing certain things and i would have to do random bizzare $#%^ to get whatever was watching me to be blocked so it/they/?? couldn't see?? like i would have to move a certain way and click my tongue in combinations and $#%^? and that carried over even when im not actively convinced of something like i still have to click my tongue in patterns or like cover my phone (not just the cam like the whole thing) and cover every pic of a person like book covers whenever im changing? and my friend asked why i was doing that and i was like um so they cant watch me obviously??? and she was like wtf the ###$
also like!!! i'll the total conviction that ppl can hear my thoughts like i have this nonstop ill be sitting in class and just be like convinced that /someone/ in the room can hear my thoughts but i wont know who but ill just know. but even during that time, part of me will be like "okay....that can't physically happen....you know it's not true..." but i'll still act like it's true?
or i for some reason randomly get convinced that a huge tragedy is gonna happen in the immediate future and not like general anxiety like i usually get? its like i will be suddenly completely convinced that within the next hour i’m going to die and my whole family is going to die and i just /know/ ???

anyways i'm sorry this is long! i'm just trying to figure out what this is because nobody i know seems to experience it. for the record, i'm diagnosed with ocd, adhd/add, general and social anxiety disorder, panic disorder, major depression, ednos, and some symptoms of post-traumatic stress not amounting to ptsd. i take zoloft and vyvanse and have taken other medication, but i've had this far before i took any medication and before i had depression, ednos, or post-traumatic symptoms.