Verge of breakdown.

Hi, I feel like I'm on the verge of a mental breakdown and need some help. I know this is not a substitute for mental health care and I plan to seek out free services for the uninsured starting tomorrow but until then, I believe that I have delusional disorder focused on jealousy. It's getting really bad. Not only am I super paranoid, but I hear things and am beginning to see and feel the hallucinations too. I just got married and it's just not fair to him. I think it's all in my head but I'm beginning to believe that these delusions are real and the frequency has increased tenfold from once every few months to several times a day. What are some things that I can do to help me get a hold on this? It's gotten so bad that I think he snuck another woman in to our bedroom and has her hidden under the bed. I need to point out that he's never been unfaithful. However the man previous was...and actually did the things I now have hallucinations about and it's clearly effed me up. And I was also raped and the rapist also tried to murder me right before I met my husband. I was in counseling 3x a week but I moved recently cross country and I don't have insurance yet z(I live in Oakland, CA now). Thanks for any input

Sorry you are not feeling well. Definitely seeing a medical provider is the best place to start. Also, getting support online has been helpful to me over the years. Hope you were able to seek care already. Hope you have some relief from the symptoms.
Sunny