recovering from delusions

I used to hallucinate that the tv was on and I would sit and stare and react to the tv as if it was on (loved ones have told me this as I was unaware at the time) thankfully I haven't had any psychotic symptoms for almost 6 months. however and I don't know if it's connected but now that my mind is clear I'm finding that simple things that I believed to be true are not. These are facts that I thought were common knowledge. Facts I was quite sure I had read about or saw on TV or learned in one of my classes. I find that I am constantly saying things that I either immediately question myself because said out loud they don't make much sense or people will ask where I got it from and I am unable to remember where when or how I learned it which leads me to looking it up and finding I am wrong. I am relatively intelligent and college educated. I wonder if these are delusions or if I hallucinate learning and reading things. I hate not being able to trust my own mind. How much of what I think I know is bs crazy. has anyone experienced or heard of this? As I continue to get better will thus go away?

Hi,

I don't have an answer for you but I want you to know that your message has been heard. It takes a lot of courage to write here. Thanks for doing so.

Kate

Hi Davi19,
I struggled with the same issue for years, and developed coping skills. Mainly, I google the heck out of facts prior to holding discussions on topics. Any belief that is emotionally based or difficult to confront, is seriously doubted by me. I was first sick back in 2005/2006. Graduated from graduate school. On medication I was able to concentrate, and I could fact check policy debates I was writing papers about in the scientific literature. Try honing your research skills, and use your smart phone and devices or computers as your crutch. It isn't core knowledge we rely on today. It is process knowledge or knowing how to find the right information most of the time. Change the way you approach topics and ask questions, don't give the answers. Just a suggestion.

Are you taking medication? If not, have you considered that you still have active chemical imbalances? I know I can't live without my medication.

Sunny