Thinking Problems

I'm sorry if I put this in the wrong forum place. I'm new to this problem.

It's been going on for at least 3 months. As early as Thanksgiving. Now I hear voices in my head, saying my name, saying stop, or rarely saying other names. Sometimes, when I'm around people and I think of them, after I think something they cough or something. It actually isn't that uncommon. I've heard people talking behind my back at school saying, "Go tell her!" and those two people that others tell that to are the people who may be at the core, or near the core of the problem. I also think of them a lot.

I'm pretty sure it's not always because of my body language. I actually sort of keep a stoic face for almost all of the day at school and there are times where I'm pretty sure the person can't see me. I will try to talk to the people who I think may be involved with the problem, but they seem keen on not saying anything to me. I've had a teacher once who I thought of and then he stepped back. I thought of my brother and I'm pretty sure he coughed or something in the car. Same with my dad. I thought of these two girls who came up to me and they stopped talking and paused for a second. My dad does that sometimes too. I thought of getting revenge on one person and then they said whispered something to their friend, but I couldn't hear it clearly. So on and so forth. I'm been making sure that my body language doesn't give away anything, but this still happens.

If I'm going crazy, how can I stop it? I don't want to believe this crap. This can't be real. But even when I'm with people and when I'm alone I hear the voices. They sound different than the usual thought-up voices I usually have. Like, they sound a lot more real. Sometimes they might say more words than just one and they'll say something that wasn't even on my mind.

Hi,
I'm sorry you aren't feeling well. Talk to a councilor or someone who can help you get access to care. Like a physician or a nurse. Print out what you wrote on here and hand it to them if it is too embarrassing to talk about. Taking care of your self and getting care is the best first step you can do for yourself. Weather you just need talk therapy, medications which are most effective, or some combination of therapies. I wish you well.
Sunny

Thank you so much for replying! It's just great to finally get an answer after a few months or so. I think I'll take your advice, but I'll have to ask my parents more about therapy.

You're not alone in this - this kind of situation has happened to others, too. Your experiences sound a lot like some others that I've heard - I think from a certain subset of Paranoid Personality Disorder. I would very strongly recommend some kind of therapist, because it's possible for a therapist to help you a lot and avert a worsening of this condition. It's not guaranteed, and if a therapist doesn't help your problem any it doesn't mean there aren't other ways, but it's a possibility that it could help a lot. You should also try some books on Paranoid Personality Disorder and delusions. You have your own reasons, of course, but maybe it'd be better to express yourself than conceal your emotions all the time?

I'd love to express my emotions (especially when they're happy, because I tell puns!), but I don't have a lot of friends at school, so I normally put on a bit of a mask. Even if I show emotion to family, it's not as much as it actually is. Still, you have a point. I've been trying to make friends, so maybe that will help. I'll also look up more about this disorder. I've done a bit of research already (just a little), and it explains a bit. I don't know about that sensitivity to insults thing, but maybe that's me being sensitive to insults (or criticism or just comments in general)?