delusion or a waking dream?

Hello all

I have delusions as well as some other symptoms and ive got an appointment to see a doctor this month and hopefully he/she will say nothing is wrong but I wanted to post here to ask you guys have you ever experienced the following delusions? I don't know if they can be classed as delusions or not.

. ive had this I think all my life. its basically where I feel at any time like im in deja vu. everybody gets this but with me its like I actually "remember" and see when that moment last occurred in the previous space-time. For example say like in the classroom there is a teacher wearing a suit and pants teaching a class of students and im one of the students. now the teacher is teaching about a subject he has never taught before, say like botanics or such. now as he is teaching I get the feeling "hang on ive been here before" and then a vision will come to me showing me when it last occoured. at the exact same place, same people, same "time" only something will be slightly different. in my vision the teacher may be wearing a blue suit for example whereas where I am sat now he is wearing a black suit. If I foucus further on the intuition feeling I will see further realities but in each one there will be something slightly different yet the same thing is happening. for example in one reality a girl will be sat next to me and in another a boy will be. I know this isn't my imagination because I do daydream but these visions pop into my mind.

if I focus even harder I can even see what its going to happen next, like if you rewind a video fast forward but the most I can do this is the next hour or so. onetime I was able to see an entire program on tv and even told my parents what happens in the program despite it being brand new program and only made that year. I was able to see the end and if I focused could see different parts of the program before they happened. all came true only in my vision awomans shirt was green but in the program in this reality it was yellow. I would see little things that were different but it ended the same in my vision

. sometimes when I stare at my skin long enough strange patterns start to be seen on it. Its like I can see red spots on my arm, but they aren't the round spots more like blotches or patches as you would see on the fur of an animal. these patches are red and form a pattern on my inside palm like the pattern of a net, they also form on my arms if I focus my vision enough. if I stare into my iris in the mirror it starts to turn a very dark blue and if I starre further my iris will start to actually glow blue and its like a blue light comes out of it, the light is as blue as the waves on a carrbibean seaside. its beautiful and if I stare futher into my own eyes while keeping my gaze around myself I start to see my aura and also the patterns come all over my face. just like the red blotches on my skin but more prominent. almost like im an alien animal.

. also when I focus on sunlight hitting a surface I can see patterns flowing across the sunlit surface, it doesn't matter what the surface is aslong as I can focus. it looks like a water reflection only it has no colour and it seems to change direction at random or sometimes when the wind blows strong enough. I can also when im focused change the direction of this flowing pattern but it takes concentration.

. also when I stare at the sky and daze I start to see little tiny energy orbs dancing around in the sky. all of them are white and very very tiny but some have colour to them. im starting to see a yellowish tinge to some of them. I can also see the little orbs if I gaze enough and they will look like a river flowing past full of little tiny orbs all going in one direction across the room.

ive always been able to see things since I was very young and as described before in previous posts also seen little beings once and things moving when I was a toddler. but its like the visions as well as delsusions change as I get more older. they don't go away only morph into new ones.

has anyone ever had experience like this and do your delusions tend to change over time? more about my delusions is in my blog post because I don't want to write too much and fill the page

its like I can describe them now but its like half my mind is in the delusions so in one half of my mind I am convinced but yet can talk about it here. as mentioned im seeing a doctor this month so im not looking for a diagnoses from here only sharing delusions and possible visions because im intrested if anyone else has the same as what ive got.

take care

I don't think this will be very helpful, but I smoke weed on occasion, once every few months, and if I have more than a few puffs, I go into a state of full on déjà vu, I'll even say things before they happen out loud, and some things will only be slightly different and it's like even if I don't know EXACTLY what's going to happen I can just feel what's going to happen. And the déjà vu won't go away, it's really unnerving and I have no idea why I get it, but reading that first paragraph just reminds me of the feeling.