Hi everyone,
I just need to vent a little. I posted on this sight back in July and it was very helpful knowing there are others that understand.
My husband and I have been married 14 years. We tried for years to have children and couldn't. When the infertility first was diagnosed my husband accussed me of cheating with a friend of his. (Male infertility) He said he watched me through a door keyhole along with another friend. I had the friend come over and confront him and then everything went back to normal. Over the years he showed signs of jealousy but nothing over the top. We then adopted a baby 2 years ago. I thought our lives were almost perfect. Then back in april he said he wanted a divorce because I was sleeping around. His stories were off the wall. He claims he has seen me with so many different people and we were all making him look like a fool. The claims involve family, neighbors, strangers, his co workers etc. We went to therapy and it was helping. After it was not covered by insurance he would not go back. His family is aware of everything and knows he has a problem. It annoys him that they side with me. If you hear his stories it is obvious he has a problem. There are a few other things I guess I should mention... after 9/11 he thought he received an envelope with powder in the mail. He also thinks everyone at work is out to get him. He has got himself involved with neighborhood politics. He is always trying to impress his family with everyone he knows. That seems to be his whole drive is being important.
Well about a month ago he started acting strange again. One night he said nothing will be ok until I get help for my sex addiction. I blew it off. We went on vacation last week and had a nice time. I could tell that every once in a while he looked disturbed. When we were leaving for the airport from the resort I asked him to stop at the drugstore because I needed diapers for my son. When i came out he asked me what present I bought for my boyfriend. I was so angry. So the next day I was getting ready and asked him to keep an eye on our son. He got a little aggrevated because our son was getting into things. After a few words he said the one day he was just going to put an axe in my head. I told him that i was upset at the mean things he says to me and he said how do I think he feels knowing that I have been sleeping around for 10 years. He then went on to say he knows about me and the guy at his work. I don't even know who he is referring to. He says you know who it is. This person is telling everyone at work and making him look like an a@@hole. He said he has even seen me sneek men out our bedroom window. I talked to his family and they are so worried for me and my son. They said I have taken enough. They love their brother but it is not fair to me. On sunday told him I thought he should get an apartment. He said after christmas and I said I don't think he should wait. He said he will thing about it. Well since then he has been bearable. Monday I went on the internet to pay bills. I went on to my charge account. (I handle all the bills) There is a charge on there for 500.00 for an investigative service. I researched it and it is to check into spousal cheating. He didn't even have enough sense to use a charge I wouldn't see!
I am feeling so bad for my son. He loves his dad and his dad loves him. I want him to have a happy home. I love his dad to but I can't eat and can't sleep. I can't take this roller coaster ride. I want to do whatever is best for my son. He already has enough to deal with with the adoption and now his parents split. I don't know how he will handle all this. I feel like I am failing my husband as well . I don't know how I am going to handle this finacially but I figure we will get by somehow. Everyone is concerned, including his family.
Any advice would be great. Please keep us in your prayers.
Sorry for the babbling and spelling errors!!