by faithful » Fri Feb 17, 2006 8:36 pm
I went to a NAMI support group, but found everyone else there had an adult child with a disorder, and although this was 2 years before I left my husband, they all envied me that I had the option to divorce while they were stuck. I didn't go back, as at the time I was determined to stay in my marriage and did not want any encouragement to leave. The facilitator said they did not get many spouses there, because spouses eventually leave.
I also went to a support group for recently separated/divorced people, but again felt out of place as the others described their spouse's mean or dishonest behaviours that led to the dissolutions and called their ex's "sick" or "crazy" - then I would chime in with my examples of what "sick" really was. There's not a lot out there for us spouses.
Interesting about DD being seen as the extreme of bi-polar. I've also heard it as the extreme of paranoid personality disorder. My husband's diagnosis was depression with related psychosis, but I am sure that bi-polar is in there too - very cyclical - he is depressed when his DD makes him believe something bad, like his wife is unfaithful, then he becomes manic when he is high on the belief that he "knows" the big secret no one else does (that his wife is unfaithful). I think my ex's cycles are very long ones - months at a time, which makes it harder to see really. He's been mostly manic since I left, extreme money spending, making grand plans and huge life changes with seemingly little thought. I think doctors use depression and bi-polar as less threatening diagnosises than DD - people understand delusional as a psychosis, and someone with a psychosis is psychotic, which leads to the lable of "psycho" and the person with DD goes all the deeper into denial.
I agree the exact diagnosis is not what is important, even treatment pretty much is just trying various drugs/psychiatric care until something seems to work for a while. Living with a person with a mental illness is really just dealing with the symptoms, the behaviours, that is so difficult.