by crazeeamie » Thu Aug 04, 2005 5:04 pm
Hi,
I'm new and haven't even introduced myself yet, but I saw your post and it sounded somewhat similar to myself so I thought I would reply. I was diagnosed with bipolar 41/2 years ago and am finally starting to get stable on 5 meds, including Wellbutrin and Lorazepam, a tranquilizer. I am also a naturally outgoing, outspoken, energetic, charismatic person. Before I got my mix of meds on the right track there was a dark side to these traits that ppl would normally consider positive. There was rage and anger and intensity so deep it was scary.
At first I was put on Paxil, which didn't help at all, then a varitey of other anti-depressants, and 4 years later I was takin 300mg of Wellbutrin, but also 4mg of Lorazepam to calm myself down in order to relax and to sleep because I was just going a million miles per hour all day. To a stranger it probably apperared I was simply a person with all those positive traits that I mentioned earlier, but really I was manic all the time. It's not natural to go for weeks with no down time. But it feels good to feel so good and people think you are just doing fantastic.
But my doctor noticed and cut my dosage of Wellbutrin in half. I can finally breathe at a normal rate of speed again. Now I get tired like normal people and my body is much more chemically balanced. I do get more done and am much more productive when I am either just my natural self with no meds or am on twice the Wellbutrin, but my body would probably die much sooner.
Relax.
BTW, what is Cyclothymia, I embarassed to say I have never heard of it?
crazeeamie