Terrible days

Hi. I have Cyclothymia. I also refuse to take the Paxil that the doc prescribed me.

I had interrupted sleep for the past 2 days. Also, 3 days ago I had a social situation that made me drink 4 beers.

As a result, the 'monster' came out. I'm no longer the funny, optimistic person that I was a week ago.
It will take maybe a week to get back to normality.

It's like I have two personalities. Right now I feel pure horror.

This forum is $#%^ . 70 views, and NO-ONE even said "sorry". Screw yourselves.

sry I meant $#%^.

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I think I may/probably have dysthymia, and from my understanding, there's usually some cyclothemia in dysthymia. I don't comment much on this forum because anything valuable I have to say is often against the rules and/or edited/deleted. But pretty often it takes a few days to get a response, no matter who's posting.

I'm not one to deliver pieties, platitudes and saccharinities, so I don't know how to "comfort" people. It seems fake and ineffective to me anyway. I always let somebody else step in and do that job.

Hope you're feeling better soon.

Thanks, I appreciate it. Last night I managed to have good sleep and things seem better now.
I think dysthymia would be a more 'constant' feeling of depression, without the up / downs of Cychlothymia...... but I'm just guessing here..... in my 'down' phases, I'm feeling extreme depression and despair, where in my 'up' phase I'm very optimistic and active . As 'creative' as it may sounds (I am a musician), during the depressed phase I'm the most worthless person on the planet.

Sometimes people need 'platitudes' just to talk about something, as stupid as it sounds

Funny, from reading your post I got strong INTP vibe...and then I read your signature and I see INTJ. Pretty similar, maybe INTP is more introverted.