I'm unsure if I have Cyclothymia or not.
I have grand plans for the future and present and think that I have a lot of potential and hope to go very far. I have broken down what I must do to achieve success into slightly smaller steps and generally have a list of things to do - but though I think I have the motivation to do these things I never really manage. I'm in two minds whether I'm a naturally lazy person or it's something else.
I've read a bit about it online and on http://www.depressedtest.com I rated 'Very High' for Cyclothymia. The symptoms do seem to fit, though until today I've never had what I'd consider a proper depressive stage. I do feel a bit down sometimes during the week etc and at weekends and go through phases of extreme self confidence to loosing a lot of self confidence, but I do feel normal a lot of the time. I do think it's a big possibility I'm just a bit moody sometimes (especially mornings) 'cause I'm a teenager.
I have decided to not pursue the issue for now, but if I was to mentally start thinking in a more positive manner all of the time and perhaps actually doing the things I've planned to do instead of just planning to do them even if I did have Cyclothymia is it treatable this way?
I don't know much about any type of depression but can it be treated solely by positive thinking etc and continued personal improvement? I can imagine if I did have Cyclothymia (or slight personality disorder is also a possibility - I was shy as a child but through high school I've had excessive confidence and reduced inhibitions to most) it would be very mild and currently in the early onset stage.
I do smoke cannabis, and over the past six-twelve months have used LSD approximately four times, and have used MDMA/ecstasy a number of times. This has coincided with my best academic performance, though, and I have done the best in progressing my life and getting the most things done during this time too. So though I want to make any readers aware of this I don't think anyone should jump to conclusions - over the past few weeks I have seriously toned down my drug use though and plan to make it a significantly less regular thing - except cannabis which I use instead of alcohol most of the time.