The New Crisis Thread

I've cut myself pretty badly yesterday and was tempted to do it even worse. Now I'm just terrified of my parents noticing. I keep considering suicide as well but I can't say much about it to my psychiatrist or she'll try to stop me. I want to be stopped and saved when I try it but I don't want to be stopped from trying.

Please keep yourself safe and please ask for the extra help in 3D. Please make sure you get your cuts looked at if they need it.

If that's where you're at right now, then I think you do need to ask your psychiatrist for help.

Please keep safe and reach out for the extra help.

Hugs
Lily

Maybe I do need to ask for more help, but right now I can't bear to. I just keep feeling like "not yet", like I still need to get worse before I say anything.

Yes, but will the goal posts for the point of "worse enough" keep shifting further away?

I think you need to reach out for help now, before it does get worse. It's going to be harder and more overwhelming when it does get to "worse enough", and you may have far less control and input over what help/treatment looks like at that point as to what it does at this point right now.

Please think about reaching out to your support team sooner rather than later.

Hugs
Lily

Oooh Lily has a good point.

Wait too long, and you might find yourself not having absolute say in what is to be done. You don't want the momentum of this to get so great it carries you along.

I haven't SHed since my last post here.

I had some changes to my medications and started taking a new one and it makes me feel very sleepy and like I don't even have the energy to SH.

Maybe that's a good thing, but I feel suffocated.