Sjord wrote: Everything I do turn to crap,
No no no that's me... you're confusing yourself with me....
How are you feeling atm?
Thanks for the reply. I'm... just delaying my panic until after the weekend, from whence I'll take it back up and be in pure The World Is Ending mode. Did a good bit of drinking Friday, and it was discouraging- usually I forget everything and am quite a happy drunk, but no not quite, this time. We seem to recall once off my ourselves, waiting to sober up, we were muttering about the most favourable time/circumstances to off ourselves. Not a happy place. Oh, don't worry, we're not actively suicidal- we're strongly OCD, and suicide ideation is quite common for pwOCD- at least, judging from the OCD forum, it is. But I don't think any of us are likely to act upon it- blowing things up out of proportion is just how we roll.
But still... no we're not in a good place, we're just temporarily setting our panic and gloom aside for the duration of Sunday, then when we return to work our mind will be once again cornered. Hopefully all for naught, but you never know- sometimes we do stupid $#%^ and then have to pray it doesn't catch up to us.
I feel as if I alienate, also. Hopefully it's not as bad as all that, for you. And at least there is still PF. If it weren't for this, I'd be trapped in my own mind- and I'd be worse on everyone around me, when I couldn't stay trapped any longer. PF is a good outlet.
What's with the anger issues, Voracious? Just the lack of proper sleep making you ill? I have worked night shift most of my life, and stayed in a perpetually grumpy mindset, until the Snagina browbeat me into burying my grumpiness deep down inside.
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