The New Crisis Thread

Hope you're ok(ish) Jellybeanery

Thank you, and same to you, smurf, but...

TRIGGER WARNING

I legit had a plan to off myself earlier. I guess more just a very lovely and peaceful thought. But I guess it was a plan, since I had it, well, planned out. I didn't attempt it though because I'm too lazy. I think I'll just go to sleep and see what tomorrow brings.

@Jelly
How are you after your sleep?

As of right now, I'm just upset. I don't have any plans of suicide or SH. So I'm safe. For now. But if it does get the point I can't handle it anymore, I will check myself in. I'm usually pretty good with getting help when I need it.

I desperately need to cut

I'm really struggling. Very weepy. Currently waiting to see cmht. Quite freaked out. I can't be honest. Being honest is going to have so many consequences. I can't deal with the consequences. Struggling to deal with any of this. Catch 22 situation I guess. Either way I'm screwed.

I opted for partial honesty! I know I need to do complete honesty, but it's difficult. I'm trying though. I feel very disconnected from everything just now and was hoping to ground myself a bit by now, but no. My little spaceship in my head is still orbiting and can't find the safety it needs to land just now