The New Crisis Thread

I feel like lve reached crisis point and no_one seems to be listening anymore. I want to be free of the s*** in my head, l want to be free from the guilt l feel for hurting my family, l want to be free from the urges to harm myself, l want be free from health professionals who think that the answer to my problems and feelings is to just add pills to make their job easier.

I know, hon. You need gender specialist that they seem unable/unwilling to provide. All I can think of is to keep asking loudly for one.

I really seriously need to rip myself a part.

I'm going to ring my doctors surgery today to try and get an appointment.

smurf wrote:I really seriously need to rip myself a part.

Hang in there, Smurf

Snaga thank you. I'm trying! It's so difficult though. I really want to do lots of damage and know I will have opportunity tomorrow or definitely Wednesday. I really need to do this

Posting in an attempt to stop myself cutting. I really need to hurt myself. I really need to destroy....... I need to do this. I can't not do it. Something has come into my head and I need to do it. Sorry

Sigh, I know, sweetie. Please try to keep it to a minimum, okay? Take care of yourself after, and let us know how you are please.

Snaga thanks.

I can't cope. I can't deal with the stuff in my head. There is so much crap going on and I need control back. I wish I could ......,,, guess it's fair to say I'm feeling suicidal just now. I have realised why the time is right for what I'm doing, but it doesn't sit comfortably. Why has it taken until now to realise? I really am stupid.

Death is so appealing just now. What is the effong point in being honest about my crap? Answer none. What's the point in jumping off a very high multi-storey car park? Result! End of all the $#%^ in my head