The New Crisis Thread

No words left.

Sometimes there are no words, sweetie.

I want to be dead

But we're glad you're not. Someday... someday this will be in the rearview mirror, sweetie.

Today is all wrong. My sleeping med makes me agitated to high hell and I have restarted therapy for PTSD and now I'm having even more emotional flashbacks. Today I had a panic attack, flipped out (because my grandma was smacking her lips) and self harmed for the first time in half a year. I'm sick of everything and just want to leave.

Has the sleeping meds been doing that?

I think so. I'm on trazodone which doubles as an antidepressant/sleeping medication and antidepressants tend to make everything worse for me.

Do you think they will switch you to something else, VL?

My turn to post. Very anxious about something right now, and the urge to self-punish is very strong at the moment. Have been burning more than the casual burning I've done on and off. I don't know what will happen. Safe atm, and my SH is pretty mild in comparison to most. But mentally I'm in a dark place atm. I'll know more in the week to come but it's going to be a bad weekend for me. I don't know. Was looking forward to a pleasant weekend, but my brain and anxiety is going to be a prison for a while.

It's not even like i think SH accomplishes anything but who ever said it has to make sense.

They switched me to Ambien yesterday. I'm still feeling agitated as all hell and I'm really pissed and getting more pissed as I'm typing this and I just want this feeling to go away and I want to punch the person sitting next to me because they're making noises and I need to get out of here now so I can slam my head against the pavement.

Snaga, how are you holding up? Do you have any medicine to take the edge of the anxiety? Or something that usually calms you down? Listen to some good music at full volume to drown the thoughts? SH is SH no matter how "severe" it is, its always a sign something is wrong!
I hope the anxiety subsides and that you get an ok weekend.

voracious_lemon, how's it going with the anger? and the med change overall? I have a huge problem with anger issues right now and its so frustrating. Im trying so so hard not to explode that its really taking a huge toll on me mentally. Its awful. I hope you feel better.

I feel like crap. Im at the end of my rope. I have alienated everyone and have nobody left. Everything I do turn to crap, everytime I open my mouth I drive people away although on the inside I scream for help. But there is no help.