How do you feel today? *may trigger

My husband knows part of it. It's hard to tell him. I know he finds it difficult to deal with it... Just maybe he thinks I'm maki g thuis up for attention. But I don't know... It's really is not.

I went to the pub yesterday and had drunk far too much. When I'm drunk I become very honest. Too honest, actually. So when two people asked me how it was going, I flaked everything out...

Everything that had happened on Friday... I only realized how lightly I told it until their faces jumped to a serious and worried face...

This morning I sent them an app containing my apologies. I'm really embarrassed... Now recovering from the headache and nausea...

Sh*t, the only times when I feel anything is when I'm high or drunk.
These are the times when I badly want to sh, as well.

Last time I got drunk I found myself wrestling with my roommate over a knife.

Last time I was high I got paranoid so I wanted a few cuts to snap myself back to reality.

I just want to feel, instead of being numbed out all the time.

Not too good tbh but staying on here for a bit to try and distract myself

Willow

Did you get thru it, WW?

Snaga wrote:Did you get thru it, WW?

I did thank you!

This place is awesome

willow

Not feeling great today but managing to plod along

willow

Plodding is better than falling down.

Having slight urges tonight but managing them.
Ive kept myself busy today which has really helped

willow

Ive been fighting urges all day

willow

I ended up giving in to the urges but managed to keep it superficial.

willow