How do you feel today? *may trigger

I... don't think a girl has to be bipolar to be saying ###$ him.

Unless all girls are bipolar.


If I struck up a correspondence with a girl and gave her money for nude pictures... smh. Even he ought to know that if you still call him b/f after that, it's a minor miracle.

Try to hold it together, sweetie- and remember that even without the bipolar, being upset with him would be expected and normal. If there's a girl that'd be down with that, I don't know her.

^ That's true. Everyone I have mentioned this to, they all think it's disgusting and can't believe he would do this. I'm tempted to try and hack his Facebook account to see what kind of conversations he's been having with all of the girls he's friends with on there, or look at his phone when he's over here... but I don't want to be one of those girlfriends.

~

I'm upset. He wants to take me out tonight, but I don't even think I want to see him. I have lost trust, I don't know if I can get over it, and I don't think this relationship will last.

How do i feel?


Under an incredible amount of anxiety, so i feel pretty wretched, and the urge for SH is stronger than it's been, since i resumed SH and sought out PF.

Nothing much more to say.

Hiya everyone!! It's been afew months since I posted here - I'm in really good place
I'm starting to get facial hair - I'm letting it grow for awhile and seeing how it looks - my voice has finished deepening - I can't think of any famous people to compare to - but my voice is Bass level deep and husky - with me using the false vocal chords only { my proper vocal chords were permanently damaged as a baby] - I can do death metal type screaming - surely there's not many people who are naturally Bass but yet can do death metal screaming too!! I'm still on track to have my top surgery next year or the first few months of 2020. I'm happy.

Hi all
I'm new to this forum. Didn't know where else to post first so here I am.
I feel #######5, which is why I'm here. I don't really have anyone to talk to about my cutting. Too ashamed to tell my friends.

Hello and welcome...

Feel free to start a thread, if you want to talk at length about your self-harm. In the meantime, yes this thread is exactly for telling everyone how we're doing/feeling. You'll also find a Crisis thread in this forum, if you find yourself in a really bad place and trying not to cut.

Sorry you're feeling bad, is it worse right now in particular, or just the general crappiness due to doing self-harm?

Electric_soul wrote:Hiya everyone!! It's been afew months since I posted here - I'm in really good place
I'm starting to get facial hair - I'm letting it grow for awhile and seeing how it looks - my voice has finished deepening - I can't think of any famous people to compare to - but my voice is Bass level deep and husky - with me using the false vocal chords only { my proper vocal chords were permanently damaged as a baby] - I can do death metal type screaming - surely there's not many people who are naturally Bass but yet can do death metal screaming too!! I'm still on track to have my top surgery next year or the first few months of 2020. I'm happy.

Oh that's so encouraging, ES! I'm always very happy to hear from you and hear how well you're doing.

I take it the SH is way in the rearview mirror, now?

Hugs!

Just an overarching depression that's been around for the past few months. I'm sick of it

Furious. Have two doctor's appointments this week. Writing a blog entry elaborating.

Earlier this year I gave a relationship a shot with another woman whom was/is mentally ill and suicidal. which was a complete disaster.
Worst case scenario: There's a corpse dangling from a ceilnig fan, to my possible culpability.
Best case scenario: She moved back to japan or back to the mental hospital.

I now smoke to relieve some stress. It's okay, i guess.

I acquired an amphetamine prescription earlier this year, which I occasionally abuse along with my alcohol.

Met a half-korean guy. Giving it a shot. Seems okay so far.

Recently, I openned up to my psychiatrist about sexual trauma and paraphilia and how, last month, it once again burnt me out into attempting suicide. He's currently helping me get into- what i'm guessing is... more intensive(?) therapy. Not sure how ot word that.


TL:DR - Fucc this earth