Hi
I read through your post- it sounds like you have been dealing with a lot recently. How is the self harm stuff going? Please keep safe with that. Sounds like a lot of stuff is going round in your head- please be honest with your therapist about it all as they can hopefully help. Sorry there are issues with diagnosis -I hope you can get some answers for sure as to what is going on and that you can get the help that you need.
Huge hugs to you
Cracked