obsessed with my trauma

it goes through phases. from reoccurring nightmares to constant flashbacks to feeling numb about it but still thinking about it all the time. its Always on my mind one way or another. I honestly think im obsessed with thinking about the sexual harassment that left me traumatized. there are triggers and memories of it Everywhere. i don't know what to do.

Hi there, beya. may I ask how this makes you feel? I'd only assume negatives.

I can somewhat relate to this, I never let go of traumatic events and pretty much dwell on the past. which isn't healthy at all, especially since I tend to trigger myself on purpose at times. the nightmares and flashbacks are the absolute worst part of it, in my opinion.

Do you have a diagnosis/therapy at all? feel free to share if you wish to.

corgis wrote:Hi there, beya. may I ask how this makes you feel? I'd only assume negatives.

I can somewhat relate to this, I never let go of traumatic events and pretty much dwell on the past. which isn't healthy at all, especially since I tend to trigger myself on purpose at times. the nightmares and flashbacks are the absolute worst part of it, in my opinion.

Do you have a diagnosis/therapy at all? feel free to share if you wish to.

Yeah it makes me feel negative, but it also makes me feel like it my trauma is validated because it's always bothering me . I sometimes, ok maybe more often than sometimes, trigger myself as well. It's like I'm testing myself to see if I'm still traumatized, and the answer is always yes.

My therapy is actually coming to an end because it's too far from my college I won't have the time/energy to travel so much just to talk for 40 minutes. The only things I've been diagnosed with are anxiety and depression, but I'm certain I have PTSD. I relate to every aspect and my therapy gave me the quiz (verbally) a few times. I recognized it because one day I was taking PTSD quizzes online and I recognized the questions haha.

I highly recommend EMDR therapy. It's a form of counseling in which you hold pulses in your palms and wear headphones so that the pulses and the sound goes right, left, right, left, etc. IT's bilateral reprocessing while you revisualize the offending memories, and afterward, the memories are more blunted like normal memories and less likely to induce flashbacks. I was lucky to get some several years back and I no longer have such severe flashbacks. I'm falling asleep right now, and I know there's a web site of service providers out there somewhere. Good luck!