Another new diagnosis

Alycorn, you sound quite a bit like me. I was diagnosed 2 years ago, and I always refused to give up. I have come to a dead end at the moment as nobody will hire me for a job and ive had to leave my studies as I was too ill over the exam period. Im the same with the relaxation techniques, I was referred to do pilates with a physiotherapist, but afterwards, I couldnt move at all. He couldnt understand it but obviously he said there was no point in me carrying on. At my last CBT session, he gave me a list of distraction techniques for when I feel an episode coming on, if anyone is interested, I can pass them on. I am also suffering from insomnia at the moment, and when I do sleep, I constantly have nightmares and wake up more worn out than when I went to bed! I also stopped taking my anti- depressants because of this, as they stopped me going into a paralysed state in my sleep, so I was pretty much acting out my dreams, which resulted in me injuring myself every night. And I have also lost my appetite since my last episode and I cant work out why. It is great to see that its not only me having these symptoms. I experience 'la belle indifference' too, during the episodes, Im not really bothered at all about whats going on, even though I cant move a single muscle, I cant swallow or talk, its only afterwards I get affected, mainly because of how it affects my life. If anybody wants more dtails on my symptoms etc, feel free to ask. Im hoping my CBT will help my condition, even if it doesnt rid me of it completely. Talk to you soon!