I am a 25 year old male. I have found I often lie and exxagerate, and have worried, it is one of my many psychological problems. However, the lies always seem to be exagerations of what I do, or total lies, aimed at a simple goal. Making people think better of me than I think of myself.
For instance, I think I am a loser for my job. I feel it is not important and I should be doing more at my age. The job I actually do, is work as a teaching assistant for a couple of professors at my school. I tell my family, I work as a teacher, and teach the classes.
I do seem to have control over my lying, in that, if somebody is going to know I am lying, I wont lie. IE: I won't tell one of the students of the class, I am the teacher. I may lie about other things though. Again, just to try and make myself look a little better. Maybe not even look better, but make it look like I am not how I feel (pathetic).
Now, I have so many psychological disfunctions, and have posted on some of them, but because of that, I have very few relationships. I have a few people I can interact with, no friends, and havn't had an intimate relationship in years. The only person I talk to regularlaly is my father. Who I lie to all the time.
Anyway, long story short. I lie all the time, but I beleive they are all aimed at protecting myself from looking like a loser. I hope in the future I will be in a position where I do not look like a loser for telling the truth, but I worry this my be a mental illness.
Yet, I do have a BS in psychology (not a lie) and I realize I am the kind of guy who reads symptoms of something and instantly thinks "disfunctional". I have really bad history of maladaptive cognitions (IE: people laughing about something on the treadmill behind me, I think they are laughing at me EVERYTIME).
I don't know how to guage my lies on a scale. For example, one lie I have told, is that I got a 33 or some other number on my MCAT when I actually got a 30. I infact feel shame about my score, and wanted it to be higher.
Obviously I am not happy with who I am. I am not confident at all. Are these symptoms of compulsive lying, or perhaps just another defense mechanism I have developed to avoid rejection from other people (also a HUGE part of my life and a documented psychological problem I have). I am really shy and nervous around others almost entirelly stemming from a fear of being rejected by my peers. Ironic becuase, my nervousness and awkwardness causes people around me to reject me.