HELP ME!

by **Guest** » Fri May 13, 2005 12:45 am

help me! i have been diagnosed with many things: bpd, depersonalization disorder, dissociative identity disorder, avoidant personality disorder, antisocial personality disorder, major depression, generalized identity disorder, etc. NO ONE knows what's wrong with me! help me!

i can't stop lying. it is going to destroy my marriage and my family.

my most major lie! i told my husband that my father raped me since the age of twelve. also, that he prostituted me. for six years now i have been living this lie. i have been pretending that i have many personalities resulting from this trauma. weird thing is, i can't have sex unless i pretend to be one of these other people? anyways, my husband told my brother and now my brother won't talk to my father and won't let my parents see his little girls. my husband hates my father and has become really depressed as a result of all this. i have tried to tell the truth and now neither my husband nor my brother believes me (they think i am so f****d up by what my father did that i am trying to deny it to myself)!

i am so sorry for what i've done. i recently have begun to plan out my death. i just don't see a way out of this.

i have even thought i might have been possessed when developing this nightmare of lies. i mean, what kind of psycho lies about this s**t! why? why! WHY!

Guest,

My therapist tells me that there is a reason for every behavior....good or bad..there is still a reason why a person acts as they do. At tleast you are aware of what it is you are doing. If you are working with a decent therapist you should be making some preogress. If not then maybe it's time to find a new T. I have a history of DID. The progress can be extremely slow...sometimes it seems to go a bit backwards.

If your relationship with your husband is good is it possible for you to tell him the truth about yourself? That may help you are and help him out of his depression. You would know better than anyone else whether that would be a wise move.

These are just a few suggestions...maybe other posters will have more replies to your post.

Please feel free to write if you want.

Kathy

by **mags** » Fri May 13, 2005 6:49 am

Hi
Iam so sorry you feel like this and iam afraid i have no experiance with your problems but felt i had to write and say to you please get help if you are not already doing so.

all the best
mags xx

by **Guest** » Sun May 15, 2005 6:24 pm

Anonymous wrote:help me! i have been diagnosed with many things: bpd, depersonalization disorder, dissociative identity disorder, avoidant personality disorder, antisocial personality disorder, major depression, generalized anxiety disorder, obscessive compulsive personality, etc. NO ONE knows what's wrong with me! help me!

i can't stop lying. it is going to destroy my marriage and my family.

my most major lie! i told my husband that my father raped me since the age of twelve. also, that he prostituted me. for six years now i have been living this lie. i have been pretending that i have many personalities resulting from this trauma. weird thing is, i can't have sex unless i pretend to be one of these other people? anyways, my husband told my brother and now my brother won't talk to my father and won't let my parents see his little girls. my husband hates my father and has become really depressed as a result of all this. i have tried to tell the truth and now neither my husband nor my brother believes me (they think i am so f****d up by what my father did that i am trying to deny it to myself)!

i am so sorry for what i've done. i recently have begun to plan out my death. i just don't see a way out of this.

i have even thought i might have been possessed when developing this nightmare of lies. i mean, what kind of psycho lies about this s**t! why? why! WHY!

HELP ME!

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