New July lying, tracking lies and getting honest journal

This is my second time doing this.
I learnt a lot. I will make a post about everything I learnt.

Here I plan to do 3 things.
1) track and record when I lie. Reason why I lied
2) the moment I am aware I lied, I get honest about it asap
3) If I don't get honest about it right away, make sure I do asap
4) start getting honest to everyone close to me about lies I have told in the past, lies I am living, or facades I want them to believe(this list is long and big)

I have a few people in my life that I will be sharing this material with.

Here we go July!

On a side note, my friend told me last night that I have an addiction to controlling people's impressions.
Interesting idea I will ponder more about

July 6th.
So the lie I told was a white lie, but I could feel the infrastructure of my being weaken from telling it.

I exaggerated to my sister how far away my truck was, tommakenit sound like it would take too long to meet up.
But instead I had plans already.
I can tell her the truth about this.
I should call her up today.

Lol, should is a losers word here.
I won't do it if I should
I will call her up today.
On my to do list.

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Also when going out to talk to girls.
I have a habit of saying a lot of little #######4 lies.

I won't to totally eliminate this.
Like entirely.
What I do, what I am doing, my intentions, where my fri3nds are at.
I don't want any of that $#%^ to be avoidance or lies.
Straight shooting from the hip.

Update:
I have been sharing a list of secrets I have. So far I have done it with two people.
My goal is to share it with 2 other people from my 12 step group.

I just shared one.
I did it over the phone, which I think is better st the moment.
In person I think I would feel so many feelings that I would dissociate in some way.
I was able to still feel in my body when I was on the phone.
Lots of discomfort, shame.
Though the names to the emotions don't matter as much as staying with the moment and not running away from the feelings, experiencing them fully ----matters most.


If I am to be 100 percent honest I skipped some things I read to them.
But I read 95% of it.
Progress, not perfection?