I hate my self for what i did, I need some help

Hey guys, I'm huge liar i lie about everything when i moved to the new city i created my own fake life and from small town loser i became pretty popular in the big town, but i created a whole new identity about who i was before who my parents are and everything i even lied to my girlfriend about that who I'm. I presented myself as that cool guy with money and stuff which honestly helped me at the begining at work and university ,but then lies become more and more and I feel like complete trash i can't eat normaly I'm scared and anxious most of the time i lost a lot of weight I really don't know what to do I'm thinking of moving to new town and starting fresh or I don't even know i'm feeling so bad about myself i hate everything that i say or do i hate myself so much. I just really want to go back to my home town and never even leave the house again.

It would improve your self esteem if you started telling the truth to these people, running away will not, although its obviously easier said than done.

You might be surprised how they respond, but even if they think your a jerk, at least you told the truth. You could think of this situation as an opportunity to face this and grow as person.

The worst that could happen is you lose some friends, but you would lose them if you ran away anyway.

May be a false story that rubbishes all the previous stories will work

Well your story sounds a lot like mine and many other stories in that we're not happy with who we are or what we have accomplished or something, and so we lie about it. We create that other person that we wish we were and we tell people things that are untrue. Then we are scared to death that somebody will catch us in those lies and find out who we really are. I think it would be a good thing to just dump it all out. Tell everybody the truth and start over from scratch. Those who are your friends will stick with you.