I keep trying to stop lying.... but it keeps happening.

So I've been dealing with the fact that I'm a compulsive liar. I didn't come to accept it and acknowledge it until about 3 - 4 months ago. Prior to that I just went about my ways, and constantly lied when there was no reason to lie. The reason I say that is because the lies were constantly to my significant other when there was nothing to lie about. I would lie about how much I got paid from work that week, so I could either get a couple grams of weed, or a case of beer. I lied about when and where I was when I was out picking up weed. The worst of it all is I lied about my finances to my partner for selfish gain. It's especially bad because we have a little girl that's almost 2 years old.
I say I came to accept it about 3 - 4 months ago, because the wife caught me in a lie. She was just about done with me and pretty much ended things with me. But in that moment I came to realize that I needed help. I've since tried to get help, but it seems that unless you have the money for psychiatric help, they won't do much for you. Because of that, I've turned to these forums. She has given me the chance to better myself for our family and a better future. But I still find myself lying about stupid little things, that I really don't need to lie about. I don't know why I do. She wouldn't be mad at me if I told the truth. But in that moment, I lie, and in that moment I fear correcting my lie. Ya know? Does that make sense?
Either way, like I said, I'm here now for online support because she wants me to get help but I don't know where else to turn. I want to fix myself so badly for our family, but it's been tough with my lying. And now it's at the point where I tell her I want to fix myself, and I'm sorry for lying yet again, but she doesn't believe me..... please help...

Welcome Jackson18 ,

I'm sorry that you're struggling with this . Dealing with compulsions is difficult . Have you looked into therapy resources ? There may be options available to you that aren't as costly as a private psychiatrist .

There is some good information in the stickies above , and some good tips from other members .

I wish you well .