Hi,
I am not sure where to really begin and have never had to confidence to find help until now. So here goes....
Around three years ago, i was in a long term relationship with someone who was perfect, we had a great relationship, there were no faults. However, i put myself into a situation where i cheated and went to great lengths to keep it hidden. Until eventually it all came out and the relationship ended.
Fast forward to now, i have been travelling, giving myself some me time and trying to clear my head. However, a friend came out to visit on my travels and we became close, leading to starting a relationship. However, once again i could not be faithful and when an old flame messaged me and gave me attention, i could not say no or reject the advances and it all happened again.
I am really low as to why i cannot just be truthful with people and why when i know i have something so good i ###$ it up. I really don't want to go on lying to anyone that get's close to me.
I feel that i am a good person and can offer something to someone but i really don't know what is wrong with me. I have no reason to lie but yet still do.
M