Failure is not an option

I am a liar. I just found this forum and will be exploring it carefully.
Thank you for being here. First honesty: I only looked when my wife said she spent so much more time looking for answers to my issues than I did (effectively zero time).
Second honesty. I am only now serious about being a liar after 16 years of increasingly abusive behavior toward my wife with lying at the core.
This is not the first time divorce has been demanded but it may be the last.
I have been lying so much and so carefully I have no real perception of truth in the events of my life.
Add to that the fact that my wife is on a knife's edge and has no trust whatsoever and actively hates me...
I cannot get through ONE SENTANCE without being called out in a lie. And I don't know if it is or not half the time and the other half I defend it to the hilt.

I am so effed up.

My topic is reference to my current marital state. My wife demands 100% honesty and any failure to meet her expectation is met with "you are choosing divorce" and worse. I am now declared biblically evil.
Why try?

I can relate to this. At this stage of my marriage, I can't make any more mistakes. Tough being human, then.

Keep reading. There are a lot of others who have similar experiences and are in similar situations. I hope that you get the answers you need.

Are you aware of deliberately lying, or does it just happen without your consent or knowledge?