Lying, lying lying....

Hi, so my girlfriend and I have been dating over a year, and recently I had confessed to her about lying to her for the past 6 months about me going and dancing with other girls at a party, and I had lied to her face too. I have had a huge problem with lying because I have never wanted to face myself as a failure when I do fail. Ever since I was young, I would lie about small things to get out of trouble, and that has seemed to carry on to now. So anyways, when I confessed to my girlfriend about 2 weeks ago, she was absolutely devastated. Borderline almost broke up with me because she does NOT like being lied to especially when someone she trusts so much like me. She has always been a very insecure type and I have a very protective side of me that doesn't want her to think that I find anyone or anything else attractive more than her, and I genuinely believe that nothing is more attractive than her. So last night, she had said something about my ex from two years ago and if I had ever done very intimate things with her and just without even thinking about it I said no, and then I thought " I didn't mean to lie to her, but if I tell her the truth now she won't believe me", and so I kept reassure her that I had never done anything like that with my ex, just so she would feel okay .Things have gotten a lot better since she almost broke up with me, but now I am caught in another lie and I am so fearful that I will lose her this time if I tell her the truth she will break up with me, and I have never felt this way about any girl in my life, and she is the best thing that has happened to me and I am absolutely crazy about her. I have been very up front and honest with her these past few weeks and I've done so well and I am so mad at myself for getting in this bind, and I need help on what or how I can break the news to her, because her trust means more to me than some stupid ex. Please help me I do not want to lose the girl of my dreams. I'm tired of lying and putting my girlfriends feelings at the expense of my stupidity.

I know exactly how that feels and what you're going through, but.. I think that you should tell her. Secrets have a way of coming out and it's better that she hears it from you, than from a stupid rumor, right? It sucks to lie to someone you love so deeply but she has to know and you're the one who have to tell her. If you tell her about your compulsive lying and the struggle you're going through, I'm sure she'll understand but she might not forgive you for messing around with your ex. It's still worth it though, because if she really loves you, she'll forgive you. Tell her as soon as possible, if you wait to tell her for like a year, things will blow up even more and she'll wonder why it took you so long to tell her.