thanks for this great post. I thought I was totally alone and a terrible person that deserved all the hate that I got from people I love for lying.
I didn't realise it was an addiction, but reading this and other posts on this forum makes me realise that it is a disease and I instead of admitting it to myself - I have always just cut people out who tell me that I have a problem. It's only now that I am in a relationship with the love of my life that I have realised how far gone I am in the addiction. Finally being honest with myself - I think back to all the lies I have told and the lies I then told to cover those initial lies.
I have almost ruined things with my partner and I can't let that happen, and he has made me want to beat this addiction not for him, but for me - because I am so consumed with self hate that I almost enjoy ruining relationships through lies so that I can self sabotage my happiness - I don't feel I deserve it.
How can I and what are the steps I need to follow in order to save my relationship before it is totally ruined?