by Cinnamonss » Thu May 21, 2020 2:46 pm
Hey there, I can't believe this thread is so long haha... I just realized a few days ago that I have a problem with compulsive lying, I had lied to my partner so many times about things in my past, and even a couple of times about smaller but memorable things and I came clean about everything yesterday, it's been really difficult, I had done some research so I told him about it and about how I will do everything to change because I really don't like this side of myself and it's been hurting me for too long... He said it's hard to trust me again tho, he has tried to do it several times but I didn't know it was such a big problem in me so I didn't know how to start fixing it... Now that I'm aware of it I will put all my energy into changing it... It hurts so badly because I can't help but blame myself for all the hurt he must be going through and in general I've been dealing with anxiety about other stuff and it's just pretty overwhelming... I kinda wish this was talked about more cause it was such a relief knowing that I wasn't a horrible person and I just have to learn to love myself and I don't know how many people may be struggling with something similar and don't even know, and there is such a big stigma around lying like it makes you the worst person ever... I'm really sad but I'm happy I found this and can learn from it.