Undiagnosed thought blocking?

Hello,

One of my first posts here. I've been depressed (MDD) for a number of years now. I've got one symptom which I'm not sure of, what is causing it, what it is and what to do about it.

I've often got serious problems thinking. I get thoughts or memories in my head, but in a few seconds they are going away. After they have gone, they seriously have gone. It feels very strange and occasionally causes me considerable anxiety. It's like there was some obstruction or wall that my thoughts bump against, and then shatter into nothingness. I also often get the feeling of near-total numbness. I have durations of time when I don't get thoughts in my head at all.

I've suspected of having depersonalization disorder. I'm not sure if that causes this thought obstruction.

It's funny that I've only mentioned this to one doctor, even though I've seen doctors for some years now. I always thought this was a symptom of depression, but now am not that sure. Even though my depression is severe and causes considerable concentration and memory problems. But I've this thought blocking or inability to think and am not sure what causes it. My next doc appointment is Tuesday and am going to ask about this. But just wanted to ask around here, if anyone has anything similar or knows what I'm talking about?

Blocking is an useful word for what you say you experience. Blocking something harmful, be it a memory, a thought of your own, or a feeling. Does leave you, us, dizzy and disoriented. I have several times recently been aware of blocking what people say to me. Being bipolar l with a couple complications can make me the scapegoat for other's anger. Or I can be obnoxious and oblivious. Whatever the cause, there have been times when someone says something hurtful to me and I don't hear it. No memory of what was said, just dismay and concern on the faces of people nearby and the angry retreating back of the 'abuser.' I guess anyone can be an abuser who says hurtful things to people in public. I think I have used this defense mech in many ways. We are fragile people. We often need to protect ourselves from others and our own thoughts and memories. Actually, I think I am grateful for this 'blocking'.

I also experience this. I've thought it to be a symptom of DID or depersonalization disorder. I have a dx of DID. I will be thinking something and my T will ask what I'm thinking about and I seriously don't know. I can't remember a thing from seconds before. Frustrating and awkward. I'm not sure if it is anything that goes along with DID or other disorders, but you can try asking a doctor or a psychariatrist.