badly treated at hospital as a child

When I was 6 - 7 years old I was hospitalised about 4 or 5 times for kidney problems. I stayed at a children's hospital about 2.5 hrs from my home, and each stay lasted about a week. This was in the years 78-79. My memories of this have always been bad, but lately since having my first child I find myself almost sort of tormented at times of these memories...

I remember once being put in a straight-jacket for a catheter as none of the nurses could do it. They were so cold and nasty all the time, and I remember only one nurse being nice ever. I remember each catheter as painful as they didn't use any topical anesethic. I remember being told to shutup reperatedly by the nurses and doctors. I remember being put out into the cold corrider with no shoes on with my catheter in to walk back to my room. It hurt to walk, and I once called out to a Dr. for help but he didn't hear me. They would give me laxatives (I presume this is the norm for pre-surgery) and I had found myself awoken in the middle of the night covered in diarehea...

My mom told me that I told her once that one of the nurses had threatned me, telling she would put me in the closet. I don't remember this though.

The whole expereince was just terrible and for years after this, I would shudder thinking about it. I remember every time my mom told me I would have to be going back into the hospital I would get immediate stomach cramps at just the thought. When I had to have the surgery, I would have to be wheeled underground to the adjoining adult hospital, and I remember those dark cement walls...it always felt like an endless journey down there. I rarely recall either of my parents being there, so it made it all the more scary.

I have always had a bit of an issue with feeling scared and anxious about being held captive, kidnapped, hurt against my will etc--and I have always wondered where these feelings come from? I always think--I haven't been attacked, raped etc. I always put it down to the fact that I have seen some bad movies depicting such stuff in my time. I no longer can tolerate anything remotely like this now--my sensitivity to these types of things is in hyper-drive.

Anyhow, I realise that my story and what I went though as a child is not all that bad at all, when there are so many people who have suffered so much...so I sort of feel like a whinger posting this. It is just that sometimes I feel so strongly upset when I think back to those years.

Anyone else expereinces ill treatment at hospitals as a child?

Thanks for listening anyway!