My mother Stole my Identity (2) - Am i Crazy?...

It has been two months Ever since my mother did this to me, but the most hurtful part, is that i never met my real father, and had a step father whos french. She lied to me, my entire life, i just found out that my real biological father was not the man that she said it was.

She was in love with this man named Johnny, she said i came from him and he left her when she was pregnant denying the baby (me). She had a so called friend "who was inlove with her". But she supposly never had a relationship with him. She lied to her entire family and everyone thought i was "Johnny's baby". But i'm not, i always knew and felt that someone was lying and i never belonged. I guess my six sense was right.

My Real father is a white Italian man, " Billy" the guy who was inlove with her. She dated him, and said she was pregnant from "Johnny", he doesn't even know he has a daughter.

I came from a cruel trick of getting her old bf back. I was born, for bragging purposes, no wonder why she hates people that always said i looked like a white italian. It's on my blood, instead, she took me to the beach ever since i was 5 months old and tanned.

I went to the beach every day of my life, until i was 9, my tan soon became brown, until my skin was completely black. My hair was curly, but she curled up my hair and made an afro on purpose for people to think i was a black kid with white features. She sent that picture to my biological father (fake) Johnny, since he was black, i was so dark he thought i was his daughter.

Until a couple of years ago, my true skin color started getting pale, snow white pale, i bleached my hair and it only made me look caucasian and italian. A friend of "Johnny" realized i wasn't his daughter, i never understood why he stopped looking for me. But now i do.

She lied to me, she used me as an instrument, and now she wants to disown me, because i filed for fraud. Can anyone please tell me, what do i have to do to be disowned???

She lives in Ohio, i live in PA, i don't know who to call or do this process. I need her out of my life, because my depression is taking over my personal health, my muscles are sore, and i have a headache daily, i'm over eating and my stomach aches which makes me vomit sometimes. When i go to bed i have horrible hallucinations or nightmares and i wake up screaming.

I don't know what to do, i got kicked out of my apartment 3 days ago, because of my mother. I have no home, i cant go to school because my loans won't work. And i need to take a quarter off to become independent student.

What is happening to me??? i havent seen the day light for 3 months already, i don't even speak to anyone or go out. Even if i starve myself i won't leave my place, thank God my Boyfriend is helping me and supporting me. Because if he wasn't here, i would of killed myself.

I attempted suicide at age 11 and 14, i thank God i met my boyfriend, because i would of fell apart or went completely insane.

THIS IS SCARY... my entire life, i enjoyed watching the movie psycho, because i could relate to Norman, and felt bad for him. I have been taking Prozac, but it doesn't do anything to me. So i've tried taking two instead of one, and sometimes i feel that any time i will lose my mind.
I cant go to school, i got kicked out from my apartment, i suffer from anxiety and depression, and my doctor doesnt want to deal with me anymore, because he is a family doctor and said i need professional help. Financially im in 3% meaning only 3% of Americans are as ruined financially as i am. My mother did this, she tried to lie to the police and wanted to put my boyfriend to jail. Said he killed me, which he is an angel. And respects me, loves me no matter what, he's being my strength in my weakest moments.

I'm ruined, i thank god im alive today, because even though my boyfriend is with me, helping me, i still can't prevent from wanting to die every day. Their is not one day that passes by where i don't think of wanting to die, or wish to die. Disownment will hurt me, because i have two little brothers that already hate me, because of my mother.

I want to survive, but i can't even go outside... please, anyone, give me any information or to contact a lawyer from PA or OH to do disownment