My father: The child molesting sociopath

I am looking around now trying to learn more about the sociopath mind. I recently found out my father was diagnosised as one many years ago. I am dealing with a huge mess of crap that keeps becoming a bigger tangled mess each time I find out something new.

My father is a child molester. He started in his childhood. He has admitted he and his one of his sisters had concentual sex in their teens. All 8 of the children were molested, the four sons all became child molesters. So I take this back to my paternal grandfather. Now my father was close to one of his cousins and I learned that he was also a child molster and he learned from his father. So this goes back at least as far as my fathers paternal grandfather. I have a feeling that a person could look at at our family tree and litterally be able to pick out the child molesters and how they have breanched to find children being molested all over the country. The reason I say this is back to the sociopath mind set. This family has convinced themselves that there is somthing wrong with our society, not with them. To them and any person close enough to get tangled in this web, the rationalizations that these minds come up with make sense. So the woman agree or are more tricked into feeling sorry for the offender, even over their own children.

I am particularly concerned about my father, as he is the "mind" in the family. He has been married twice and has a total of 9 children, known to me, among 4 different women. My mother was 16 whenshe had me and my father was 34. Before I was even born, he had a wife with two children, one boy and one girl. He cheated on that woman and had a son with one woman and a daughter with another. The one with the son was smart enough to read between the lines and get out before that child was even born. As far as I know, my father had never met him. He lived with the other two woman and molested my two sisters and brother. The wife found out that he was molesting not just her daughter, but her son too and my father swore to stop. Well he never did. During this time, her son, was shot and killed by the neighbor.

This about the time my mother came into the mess when the youngest was 4 and she was only 14 at the time. . She got pregnant with me and the second woman had a second daughter, who I call a sister but the father is not truelly known, and we were literally born with one day bewteen us. Anyway, the wife divorced him and she and the second woman left the state with the three little girls. Charges were later filed by the second woman but were later dropped as there was not enough evidence. My mother lived on with my father as she felt she had won the prize.

As life went on for the two of them, they had another daughter and then a son. My mother found out my father was molesting me when I was about 7. He swore to stop but I finally found out what actually happened was he swore he had not molested my younger sister and my mother sacrificed me to protect her other daughter as she never really wanted much to do with me anyway. The oldest sister later tried to file charges and was told she was out of her statue of limitations. They said they would investigate. She was told they had spent time talking to both my younger sister and myself when in fact we never say any member of the state outside of our parents presence. When we were very young, other members of the family called social services, and everytime, my parents were tipped offf in time to clean us and the house up. After a few times of this, they put right into their records that our family should be left alone as everyone was against us. (My father menipulated their minds into thinking they were the victims)

Well over years they had two more sons. My sister and I were continueing to be molested and pit against each other so that we would hate eachother enough not to get together and disscuss this. I witnessed my father encouring my brother to secretly watch my sister athough I never saw him touch any of the three. He is now an adult and i have spoken with him about this and he has blocked it all out and actually feels my mother may had done soemthing to him instead. Well my sister and I reached our teens and he began to pressure my mother to get us on birth control because he said we were sluts and they would end up raising grandkids if they didnt intervene. His real intention was to be able to rape us at will but my mother refused. He tried on a few occassions to rape both of us and finally we went to our high school guidance counsler for help, telling a little at a time to build our trust with her. Well my sister and I both had "inherited" our ability to look like womehting else that we were not very well. We had a lot of friends, were out going, top grades, we were in sports, and we never into even the smallest form of trouble. She told us that our paretns must be doing something right. And again he got away with what he was doing.

My sister, the one two days older, ha dbeen pulled out of her home after being confronted about the same problems. (Her mother had moved with her daughters back to the area and married my fahters brother.) She was over wieght, had few friends and not in sports. And later when I finally did get into a little trouble, she flipped out in front of everyone involved telling them everything that was goign on in my home (my mother was also very physically abusive to all her children except my younger sister) Well reported what they needed to and they looked into it and they only pulled out files that stated that my sisters mother was out to get my parents so they felt it had been fed to her and no more investigating was done.

Well now I am an adult and my younger brothers are almost teens. One is over emotional and the other is showing the tell tale signs beign a sociopath as well. He is literally beign taught this by my father. He is only 11 and had not learned to have fake emotion yet so he just shows no emotion at all. I fear that they are being molested as well, especially since there are no other girls or woman living with them for my father to be controlling over and get rid of his sexual aggresion. My mother had him investigated as well but he knew they were coming and had my brothers well prepared. He is very convincing and has a very high IQ, mensa high, although he has never been taken their tests. As you can see, he has gotten away with this for a very long time, even through many investitigations. He is very smart in legal ways and have helped family members out of trouble on very unnoticeable techicalities. He is anti-goverment, has an issue with any type of authority, any in no way will conform to society as feels that society's ideas of what is right and wrong is only taboo that is supported by the goverments control.

I would like to get my brothers out of this but I dont think I can turn anywhere. If I could get him on tape admitting he is a child molester it would have to be of boys to as I have seen that county give cusody of the boys back time and time again if they feel the offender only targets girls. I feel that nobody will believe me as they have not believe any one of the four daughter who have reached out for help already. Each time it is turned around and the daughter is the liar. If I were to go through with this, I would have to be sucessful as he would refuse me to see them ever again. Also working against me is my younger sister who is always saying keep the past in the past. She has left her son alone with both of our parents and will go camping for a weekend with him, stay the night at his house, ect. She sees him so much that he mind control is still in effect on her and as a result, would probably lie in court in support of him as she feels he is the best thing to ever happen to our little borthers. I am also very concerned about them being brought up in an enviroment with a sociopath as this will also effect their futures in a very negative way. Does anyone know of a way place that I could turn for help? I cant afford a private detective. Maybe I caould play the mind games back sometime when he is drunk as he does this once a week and is a little more willing ot open up, and then try to get him on tape.

I have plenty to be concerned about as he used to tell me that society was wrong about the realtionship the father should have with his children. THe father should be the first to be having sex with ihs daughters as he would be the only real man that loved tehm enough to do this to them with out hurting them the first time. fathers having sex with thier daughters is a duty that sould be preformed as an act of love. He would also say that is a father has the right to teach their sons how to jack off the right way, although he never really elabrated on this on
And I suspect some of my cousins are child molesters to thier siblings and children as they molested me in thier teens. How do I uncover all of that?

And is there a forum for Sociopath?

Dear Madam

I read your history and want you to know that you are one strong person for even being able to tell the tale.

I have had an abusive parental past, not sexually exactly although there were sexual elements, anyway, you have a lot to be angry about and if I were you, I'd go to a legal clinic and try to find someone by asking them for a referral, someone who could help you. I believe that there are steps you could take to bring him to justice.

Like you could go to either a newspaper, or a local womens organization and ask them for help. Maybe someone would write your story in an article warning the community about him.

Just because some authorities don't want to help doesn't mean no one will. I am looking for help in my story as well and I understand how you feel since no one is even responding to you here. Its not because you are not believed or worthy, its just people don't know how to HEAR such things, and they freeze up.

You know what? search on the internet or ask a LIBRARIAN they are awesome resources.

I think my mom is a sociopath too and the forum (closest anyway) is Anti Social Personality Disorder (they talk about the differences in the forum so read on)

I hope that you get this message even though its two months later!

I did find the Anti-social forum too, after I posted here and posted there. Thanks for your advice. A legal clinic is something I never thought of. I will look into it. But sadly not right away. My high risk pregnancy is taking me for a bit of a run so I think it is better to focus on my day to day mental stability and stess level for this baby. But it I will be looking around the net on this and might be able to get more info that could help me in the mean time.

Thanks again
Becky

Dear Becky

I'll be thinking of you and your baby, been there myself... Please don't get discouraged about the situation you described. I feel the same way - noone wants to hear, but ultimately when we do get heard, it will be HUGE.

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