I need to get out

Hello, my name is Kendall and I'm 14. I only live with my dad because my parents are divorced and my mom has been in prison since I was 7. My dad does do drugs, he smokes and drinks as well, and a lot of the time when he's like that he starts saying really disgusting and... Just hurtful stuff as well as hurting me physically.
I have a brother who is 20 and a sister that is 16, and I know my dad likes my brother the most, he'll ask me why I cannot be more like him every day.
Just two nights ago when we had to leave to go somewhere (he was drunk) I took less than 5 minutes and he was holding a smaller type TV (for my uncle) and he just... He like blew up at me and smashed the TV. He then yanked my hair and punched my stomach because I took too long. It has been going on since I was a lot younger though, I don't really like to talk about it.
He has told me that he wished that he had drowned me when I was born. He'll hit me with his belt, fists, he'll kick me, he will do anything to hurt me and I'm terrified of him. I try to avoid him as much as possible. I do have depression, PTSD, anxiety, OCD, due to all of this that has happened to me.
He has gone to jail quite a bit a and has gotten pulled over so many times I don't even know.
He tells me that I should respect him and I do, I always try to be nice to him! I also have to be careful about what I say, he hates being incorrect, so most of the time I'm silent. He tells me that he was raised like this and that he turned out fine. I always tell him that I'm sorry for, or at least it seems like everything I do.
I've gotten to the point where I am so used to this that I expect to be hit or called something everytime I walk downstairs or out of a room.
I really just want to escape this place and just... Go. But I don't know how and I'm afraid he'll catch me, because if he does catch me...God knows what he would do. I just feel hopeless and I don't know what to do.
Thank you for reading (I'm so sorry if I was all over the place and confusing!)

I'm so sorry to hear. I grew up in a an abusive household too. I'm 22 now and haven't suffered abuse for over 5 years. I was physically beaten from a really young age, probably 4-5 to around 16/17. You absolutely do not deserve to be treated this way. And it's such a difficult situation, to be living under someone's roof who hurts you, if you have no where else to go. It can seem like you're stuck. I never did leave my household, My brother who's 12 years older than me beat me and ###$ me up psychologically from childhood to adulthood.. I had to wait until he moved out.
I hope circumstances are different for you... You could maybe get the police involved, but I'd recommend ensuring you have sufficient evidence to prove you are being harmed by your dad. But sometimes people are often afraid of going to the police, and for good reason, if their family members are particularly threatening, the fear of facing their consequences is enough to motivate you not to do so.
If you have anyone, anywhere you can go, someone you can trust. Or even some kind of charitable organization in your area that protects young people from abusive households. Please do your research and go there. Such an appallingly high number of kids are suffering abuse out there. I'm so sorry for your situation!

Very hard living somewhere when you cannot trust those who are supposedly your protectors. The advice from kzk is pretty well what I would say. Actually my life was similar from before I can remember until around 16 when dad came back home. (it was my mother and then my brother as he snapped from her abuse).

For a really longtime I beat myself up over feeling I was too weak to run away. (I ran away to my father and grandparents who all sent me back). My friend made me realize that I stayed so I could finish school. That was strength not weakness. The abuse hurt my schooling but in the end I made it and have done well. The next few years may seem like an eternity but hang in there, study, look at how to improve yourself, make a plan for your future.

You will get through it. Life has been just better and better since I left home. Keep hanging in there.