here goes..

Hi im new here
Im 17 now, i spent my whole life living in hatred, hatred has driven me, it has shaped me, it has defined my entire outlook of life

What i hate, simple, child abuse, WHO i hate..i hate him so much i cant even say the name, but it is the male parent of my sister

The bastard tortured us for years and years and years...ahh i dont even know why im writing, why would anyone care about my personal life anyway??

The thing thats wrecking my mind is, i was told none of his years of abuse ever even happened...i dont know if IM insane or THEIR covering up for him..i feel like my whole life, everything about me isnt real
I KNOW everything happened, i was there for godsake but mum and my sis said im a horrible liar and ive always had a creative imagination

I dont know what to do, im having a serious crisis, my whole world is literally upside down ihate it
Please help me in anyway you can
Im privyet (im rus, forgiv me if english is bad please)

I am sorry for what happened to you. None of it was your fault. I believe you. You are not crazy. A lot of times people stay in denial because they don't want to accept that a person could hurt children so they disbelieve the kids cuz they think its easier that way... U are not alone

The biggest lesson from my childhood was that adults/children will embrace any lie, rationalise anything uncomfortable, rather than see the truth, no matter how obvious it is.

If they can pretend it is just a coincidence, or a naughty child lying, then they can get on with their normal pleasant life and not only not do anything, but not suffer any guilt later because they would not help.

you will hear that here again and again.

we know what happens behind closed doors and how those who are supposed to protect enable.

We can listen, we can share, we can offer advice.

we can do many things for you, but maybe the biggest is we will believe.