Is my mom a narcassist

I feel that my mom is a narcissist, but I'm not sure. My reasoning is based on all the a use she's out me through starting from since I was 5. The first instances was regarding the verbal abuse. My mom worked as a teacher (she was always nice tower students and was never abusive), and she dealt racism there which got her upset. All of that anger went out to me. She'd call me a bitch, asshole, retard, I hate you, ###$ you, everything. This was a daily occurrences and I'd cry. Whenever I'd cry, she'd say "stop ######6 crying!" "Why is this bitch crying?" "I'll box your teeth down your throat!". I've always though that being sensitive was a horrible thing, but now I realize that it's just who I am. She'd also curse at me in public. There were multiple times where my mom and I was walking in public, and I was being yelled at in your ear crying. People saw, but did nothing. One time, I had to play a song for a piano recital, I forgot the song, and then my mom took me out the room and kicked me down the stairs. She said I was a failure, and that I was a ######6 retard. She also bought me a lot of junk food, which caused me to be nearly obese. Now I'm at good weight/health, but she'd put me down. Whenever she saw me, she'd say "all you want to do is eat and get fat. ######6 bitch". But afterwards she'd surprise me with ore junk food. I had to eat it, and despite the doctors complaining she made me eat junk. She wouldn't even try to force me to war healthy. The sane with video games. When I failed a test she'd curse me out but surprise me with more video games. She'd also apologize and then hurt me again and again. When I was 14, she'd start using a belt buckle. She'd use it when I failed a test. I'd scream in pain, and shed keep going and going, only to apologize and promise not to do it, but she did it again and again. It only stopped at 15, and that's when the depression/suicudal thoughts kicked in. I wanted to die almost every day. I wanted to jump out a window or starve. The toughest are still here, and sometimes I think of groping to my school roof and jumping when things get to hard. Also, my mom controls me. She picks out my clothing, and even my hairstyles sometimes. She'll sleep on my room and if I asked her to leave, she'd say "I'll leave soon (I'd have to wait 30 minuets to an hour) "your the most ungrateful girl I've ever known" "I'm your mom be nice and let me sleep" "######6 bitch". She'd a,so war my snacks sometimes and whoever she talks in the phone she'll go to my room. If I stand up she'll threaten to beat me. She still does this now and although she usually leaves in a few seconds, it's annoying. If I out something on Facebook, i need permission. One time I posted a selfie and she threatened to beat me, that my face was ugly, I was smiling like a retard, that she'll punch me, etc. Later she said "sweetie, I only did that so you could learn. I love you," She claims that she's a good mom because she clothes/gives me shelter and food. One time we had a fist fight where I've told my neighbor what my mom does. She told me "just go back in the house. Your mom is going through a lot and I want her to succeed." My mom even told my neighbor what she did to me with a laugh. There so much more horrible things, but this is what I'll add. My other family members are just as dysfunctional and do each other daily. The also make excuses for my mom as well. I believe that abusive parents shouldn't get excuses period! I get she went through racism and other stuff, but she had a job as a parent and there are no excuse. She still is abusive to me verbally, takes over my room, picks my clothes, and such. Is my mom a narc?

I don't know, is she? we can't diagnose mental disorders here, but can give brief ideas and provide extra advice and support. I'll let someone else give you that advice, however, I'm sure there's someone that knows about this a little more than I do myself

i'd say that she's horrible.. and i think that it doesn't really matter sometimes what label someone has - what really matters is the effect that they have on us and whether they have the ability to care, love and empathise.. and your mother doesn't seem to have any of those qualities - she scares you, hurts you, puts you down and makes you feel like crap.

Unfortunately we can't diagnose here or say with certainty whether she's got NPD or not.. i can say with certainty that's she is narcissistic (as in ''self centred and selfish''). If you believe that she fits the criteria for NPD, then it's a really good idea for you to read as much as you can and find some decent tips on how to deal with her as best as you can until you're able to move away from her completely.
My mother has malignant NPD and I can see a lot of similarities between my mother and yours but again.. no proper answer for you - just support any time you need or want it.

Your neighbour is awful by the way.. it's horrible that she just stood by and dismissed everything like that.. have you ever considered speaking to the police or anyone.? is your dad around at all.?
have you got anywhere safe that you're able to go to when things get really rough.?
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