Emotional abuse from Family? How to let go?

22 (female) I have nothing and no one.


I'm the scapegoat of my family and the youngest of all my siblings. I have endured so much dehumanization and emotional abuse as a child on up.

I've been controlled and verbally attacked since day 1. They have installed fear in me and I'm scared all the time. They tell me how no one will ever love or like me... they tell me how I was a mistake all the time. They paint this picture to the world that I am slow and have issues. They allow their friends to talk to me like I'm nothing.

They said I will never be anything in life.. and this has been since day 1. When someone tries to show interest in me they get angry and tell that person not to like me and then curse me out for it. My aunt has stepped in and tried to stick up for me because she and my uncles are aware of the behavior. But my dad cursed them out and told them that I'm not worth them fighting over.

I'm saving up to move out of state and will be starting college in the summer of 2016. But I will be moving out next month and staying in my co-workers basement... but I am going to tell my family I moved out of state and I am cutting off contact. I will be staying there until I save up to my goal and then move.

But I know they are going to run and spread lies about me and make me the bad guy because I'm leaving.

I'm afraid... I'm scared to LOVE, and feel so wrong for letting someone love me. I cannot imagine a healthy life for myself. Like why would someone love me? That's what my dad would always ask me.

I'm not ugly, not fat...although that doesn't matter, but people tell me I'm pretty, are they lying? Why isn't I'm able to be loved?

How do I move on with my life and stop thinking about them?

JessieParg wrote:the scapegoat of my family

Family dynamics,

When the scapegoat removes themselves the family whether its the biological one or a workplace they usually find another one to fill the position.


The best revenge for a scapegoat is to leave the dynamic and just do well.

There is a close to 7 billion people on this planet to do life with so buy a holes, it was nice knowing you I guess...

JessieParg wrote:22 (female) I have nothing and no one.

Not for long, look forward not back.

And I know from experience the absolute best revenge is to leave it behind and just do well. Scapegoaters HATE that more than anything else.