depression get worse

Honestly, i really wish i can die and know nothing about it. despite all my effort in trying to manage depression. i dont get better. i still need more support but cant. i still live with my abusive mom and i have no place to go. i been in and out of job because of memory issues and my behavior. people dont understand i have difficulty and its really hard to get my foot on track sometimes. everyday i get more depressed, more anxious, sleepless, fatigue, my eyes all have black circle. i look crazy and i am crazy. i am scared of relationship. i never have boyfriend and dont even care. i only have good relationship with my best friend. my depression definitely got worse and i feel like i will lose my mind soon. now i have a hard time memorizing things. i lost touch with reality. i feel like i am dead inside and only my physical being is here.

You came on child abuse, we also have forums that cover depression etc. but I am assuming your depression comes from other issues, .. child abuse?

If so are you still living with your abuser ?/

Does your best friend know any of this history ??

If you can give us a little more we can help more.

Your situation sounds pretty bad, but we will try to help.

your situation sounds really difficult and i'm sorry that you haven't got an immediate way of leaving..

You sound incredibly depressed due to all the abuse that's ongoing atm..

Is there any way whatsoever that you can leave there..?

Is there a possibility of moving into a domestic violence shelter or taking a voluntary admission in a mental health unit.?

xx