a broken family with abusive mother and indifferent father

I am the victim here. This is my life. I was abused all around (physical, emotional, sexual) by my mother, you name it. Happiness is not allowed in my home. Only fear, anger, frustration, sadness is allowed. Any kind of happiness is punished. If my mother doesnt get her way, there is hell to pay. Everyone will pay dearly for it. Disrespect is the common theme in my home. I was treated like trash. My father has second family and stay there for a long time. He got the heck out because he can't stand my mother. I am stubborn, challenged, strong-headed but the abuse still affected me. I am depressed, having eating disorder, intimacy issues, attitude problems etc. I am a girl and my mother hates me. It seems to me that women dont get along much not only between me and my mother but also between me and other women. between me and her is jealousy, anger, power struggles and nothing else. i wish her dead. i told my dad about being sexually abused without letting my bitch mother knows about it. he said he would help me living somewhere else. i still didnt get answer from him yet. she seems to favor my brother. after years of research regarding the nature of abusive mother, it is common that the mother favor the son rather the daughter. i think because the son listen more to the mother and easily bent around by her. my brother can do whatever he want, she still control him but he get spoiled. also she raise the son to be an abusive violent man. she believe men should be violent and that's a good man.
she believe daughter is useless, stupid, nothing but a piece of meat for men to ###$ with. she also believe that i should get beaten by boyfriend, husband or other men because i am such a pain in the ass. she also said she wanted to crack my skull since i was so stubborn and useless and then she said she loved me because she provided me good education and good stuff. well i am glad that my dad still stick around so that now he's the only person that i can reach out for help. he teaches me to protect myself, be brave and be nice to other people. i guess that;s good stuff for me. my mother teaches me to be mean and force me to do disgusting thing but i refuse and then i get hit. she actually turn my dad against me saying he is a cheating bastard. when i was younger i believe it, i am still mad at him about the cheating but now i know why he cheats. i can't wait to the day i get out of the house with my father and say to her face that i am no longer related to her. if she get violent at that point, i will put her in the damn emergency room at the welcoming hospital.